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2009-09-17T18:29:00.002+08:00

i've shifted to my own personal blog.
i'm outta here.
abandoning you guys.
MUAHAHAHAHA.
lol.

i'm abit sot-sot now.
heh.
http://dmcthunder.livejournal.com/
(:

BYE!~

2009-08-06T21:21:00.003+08:00

well~ heres the request of my opinion of u! :D

lets start off with bad (:
i feel that maybe sometimes ur too insensitive bah. i dun really noe how to explain but thats how i feel.
u also can get rather emotional at times. stay strong girl (:

thast rather off for the bad part.
now for to GOOOD one :P

first of all, i was kinda attracted to ur character, like strong willed and maybe at times sturbbon. its quite a good thing for a girl, but when it comes to love, ur totally helpless - -... which was mentioned above that ur too emotional.

u might be fierce but den again, can disturb u one o.o... so its ok :X
i like the way u react haha. and of course! the way how u love ur family (:
u noe hor, if i continue talking liddat, people will think that i like u sia - -...
so i guess i will stpo around here (: , but i really enjoy ur company.

ah guin.

2009-08-06T20:40:00.003+08:00

hihi~ this post is dedicated to my watermelon :P

recently had been rather fun spending time with u (:

even though ur fierce ._. ok la~ at times =X

went out with u 3 times le ^^...

1st was to watched obsessed haha.

i remember i w as like running a fever. den u keep sayin it will spread to u. rawr. so much for concern xD. sent u home den went home (:
p.s , when i recieved ur sms thanking me, it felt very nice (:

well~ 2nd time was went to eat pizza! :D. quite a funny meal :P, u keep sayin i look down on u. i nvr hor ok! it called teaching =X. den ur mother and ur cute brother came hahaha. veri nice people :D. and den u felt guilty for not buying a present for my father. it was ok laa (:

3rd was just yesterday :P, went to eat mac. veri comical la the scene. the mayo, flying chilli and dropping of the burger box >.>... plus leh~ the aunty who gave me 4 plastic bags o.o.. i mean, CARRIER. see, i learn fast right :P.
watched hang over o.o...
retardedly funny show, first time hear u laugh so much LOL. the cinema finish laughing le u still laughing =X. u should laugh more lurhs, =p. i tink caz is u spend time wif me dats why so happy right xD. and oh ya~ the aunties thing too :P. careful hor, u gonna be one soon :x

2 other times i met u in sch ;o... first was to help the dunno who LOL i 4got her name :x... do her assignment de. the one i keep editing the english :x... went to eat den u all went to huiying hse :O.

2nd was the one i tried to find u in the lib when u watching movie, den cannot find. den u ask me go lib entrance find u, i see u den ask "you ask me find u for what o.o"... den u say u dunno LOL. den we both stand there like kukus xD.

mmm, theres also bad times bah. the one u told me to take a few steps thing.
i really intended to do what i told u wor. but u somehow explained to me what u really meant so ya.. but i stopped the sms le (: apart from yesterday lo.

got good things got bad things. but onverall good things more den bad things :P.
hope u also enjoyed urself spending time together with me (:

thats all folks!

oi! i also wan a post for me on ur blog! :P.

-penguin or.. honeydew :P

2009-07-29T23:42:00.003+08:00

Hi Mr.penguinWANNABE :D

unless u wanna get ur parents in trouble...

no point using public internet too. ur computer itself have an IP add :D.. so it will somehow link and show who used the internet. (:

but if ur willing to say who u are and apologise, we will forget about this (:
peace! :D

2009-07-27T18:16:00.003+08:00

been real busy ):
invovling in dancesports, ndp rehearsals and sch work.
dun even hav time for girls :P(or maybe not? :D)

so much going on
AHHH

the world is a stage and everyone's playing a role...

what role am i playing?

good?

evil?

i m not sure.
(:

i wanna grab ur heart and smash it into the wall. but i think the wall might crack instead of ur heart.

penguin.

2009-07-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

To rise from the ashes, only to enter the thick fog..

And fall into darkness...

A silent prayer is muttered.

.:Jeong:.

2009-07-03T16:48:00.003+08:00

Keep Running.
Let the footsteps fill the air around you.
Stop. And listen to the repeating words.

Keep Running.
Let the sweat cover you skin.
Stop. And feel the tears flow down.

Keep Running.
Let your heart pump life.
Stop. And you feel your heart break.

Keep Running.
Till there's no tomorrow.

2009-07-02T21:45:00.006+08:00

Ok.. Long time no post.. It's complicated for me to explain so I won't bother to. Guess I'll start the ball rolling on this blog again.. (Hopefully, you two will join in too. Let's not make this blog dead aight?)

Just watch this:

.:Jeong:.

2009-04-22T19:15:00.003+08:00

my class changed. i m officially in T2B8.

caz they missed out one core module, so i changed class. oh wells.

my wordpress is updated...

yup.

i wonder how are u doing.

penguin.

2009-04-22T00:43:00.000+08:00

it hurts. really it does.

why.

penguin.

2009-04-08T22:40:00.003+08:00

this post was all a joke...

dun read so much into it.

please?

penguin

2009-03-15T16:11:00.003+08:00

Once upon a time, there was a boy named "Jeong". On the night before his very first ODAC March Expedition in his very life, he just happened to watch "Vertical Limit" on Star Movies at 7pm to 8.30pm.. That movie just made him feel from this =)

to this

t(-.-t)

He now feels very "wtf.." but he is going to press on for March Expedition..

Wish him all the best of luck k? =P

**Catch the French movie "District 13" when you have the time.. It friggin' rawks! =D

.:Jeong:.

2009-03-06T23:16:00.002+08:00

YEAHHH!!! xD

CJC Cross Country '09!!!

Finally.. first time in my years in CJC doing this since last year one cancelled by renovations and repairs in Macritchie..

Becoz' I retain in CJC so I'm considered as J1 for cross country. A bit cheat-cheat and unfair to this year's batch..

As predicted, since reporting time was at 3pm in Macritchie, everybody all "last min" leave sch around 2+pm to go Macritchie. So bus stop packed even worse than a can of sardines.. Eventually gave up on the idea of waiting for bus 132 and 156 and decided to walk there. (About 6 bus stops away..)

Wasnt really hard to remember how to walk there since ODAC did abt 10km jog frm CJC-to-Macritchie-and-back-to-CJC last Wed.. Reached around 3.10pm so by then got many CJ-cians there alr. Didnt wear my race tag coz' I wanted to see who is J1 / J2 and if they looked like tough competition.. Game Plan: Aim for Top 30. Finish it below 25min, if better then 21min. Seemed a bit tough since I lost my running ability as soon as promos ended last year when everything spiraled downwards.

Flag off after girls then heart start thumpinglike madddd.. (2 hrs before my body like stressed.. Suddenly blocked-nose etc.. scary sia.) Got caught in the bottleneck about 2m behind the start line..

Once the blowhorn sounded, it's like mad chionging for a while till reach the forest trail for Macritchie. There then everything start going blur. Running and overtaking and running and overtaking and running and overtaking... See alot of my friends, cheer on etc.

Got a few times I wanted to stop but tell myself that I can still push and that I'm running for ODAC and all my friends and myself. So since my running ability wasn't really there, I couldnt really go faster than last year when I was at my "peak"..

Reached the road then the toll started to take effect.. Legs started to tire and toes started to numb.. Cleared abt 1/2way then I suddenly heard Kian How's voice saying,

"Go Jeong!"

1st thought: Crap... not fast enough..

Cheered Kian How also as he overtake me.. Wah this feeling really sian coz' KH very fast when I just entered CJC last year.. Then cont'd all the way until Charmaine suddenly shouting smth when I reaching the entrance leading to Macritchie.. (Competitive Girls' flag-off time is 10mins earlier so naturally Charmaine, the runner she herself is, finished already and still got time jog back outside and cheer others) =D

Only heard "Jeong! Hurry up! The ending is *blah blah.. never catch what she heard* "

Since it wasnt clear, I thought the ending would be like the one at MSHS where it finishes near the carpark. Then I saw Kenneth!!! OMG! Then I saw the finishing line not very far away.. Much lesser distance in comparison to MSHS! Like the finish line was on the descending slope.. Wahz! Shit!!! Then 'pia' with the remaining energy I had.. Kenneth still overtook me.. =(

Then I almost ran into J2s' finishing lane.. Haha. Took a split-second to switch to J1s' lane then I got the no. tag...

It. Was. Number. 24!~

Then I happy yet sad at the same time.. Happy with minimum clearance as Top 30 but disappointed because if I pushed just a little bit more knowing that the finishing line was so much closer, if I fully heard what Charmaine shouted out.. I could have changed this outcome.. =S

Then after that cope like 3 small cups of Milo then started waiting for ppl to finish and at the same time ask how they did for Cross Country. I'm damn proud of ODAC because they all got majority of the Top 20 positions (from 4th place onwards) including the girls!!! Then the J1 guys like Xuan Yu, Rui Zhi, Kenneth, Jared, Tao Yee etc all got top 20 position also! I'm also damn proud of Kenneth!!! Ex-ODAC, now Robotics and also got 40+ izzit? (correct me if I got the no. wrong) which is damn fast considering the other J2s.. (Bring glory to Robotics CCA! =P) I'm also proud of Chin Seng, my current classmate which got 4th place for J1.. He is a natural running talent. Got too many things to say lah.. After that got quick dismissal coz' lightning warning came up. Settled some ODAC Cross Country stuff in sch then go dinner.

Next day, prize presentation. Damn proud of everyone who received prizes. Like I was probably one of the few 'J1s' who clap loud-loud. Paiseh haha. But they said the J1s top 17 - 20th position ppl all not present.. Only when everybody left after prize presentation and assembly in the morning then my classmate suddenly told me I was the Top 20th in J1 competitive boys. Then my expression changed from puzzled to confused then surprised.. I then chiong down to P.E. office and saw smth like..

(position 20) (race tag no. 324), (my name) , (my timing)

in the table.. Then I was like WTF for quite a while.. Then ran back up and down to find P.E. teacher abt the positions.. Turned out that around the 16th to 20th position all kena confused because some ppl who recorded the timings never see some ppl's race tag no. So I wasnt the only one who didnt received and knew we won top 20 positions. P.E. Dept. now trying to clarify problems..

Would be good if I still stayed as Top 20th.. then got trophy to remember.. Haha. If dont have also nevermind.. Journey more impt than the destination but both are still impt. Next year may be a lot more tougher coz' the ppl this year who joined Track 'n' Field and probably some from Canoeing are gonna be better than where they currently stand. Now's that's going to be tough to beat next year.. Must jiayou! =P

.:Jeong Su:. (finally did update..)

2009-02-25T17:56:00.002+08:00

And... WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE exams finish! woohoo.

kk a few updates here and there den.

lets see...

last mondae, went to singapore poly to studyyyyyy :D. wif li teng and EMEEEEEEEEEEEEELEEEEEEEEEEEN soh. ;p. + 2 of li teng fren ~.~ heh. but nvr really talk to them. only talked to emeleen most of the time.

was in the lib studying lurhs. start at 11am? den lunch at 1 plus pm hehe.we took shifts to eat lunch caz no1 to look after bags... i went to eat wif emeleen, eat macs :D.

chit chatted alot den almost 4got li teng and gang haven eat LOL. dam pai seh. den faster rush bak. oh ya, when eating that time i met yu ling :D. last time my sakae work mate hehe. den.. on the way back, WE LOST OUR WAY LOL.

you noe whats the best part? when we were lost, 2 other people ask us for directions wahahha i still can remember what they ask "excuse me, do u noe wheres block 5?" den i was like... "i THINK i dunno la" LOL.

den....... when we were walking past. those 2 following behind LOL. den we scared the lib was near block 5 lol! den we dunno hahahaha. but luckily they took a different turn hehe.

ANYWAAAAAY after we went bak, i studied awhile den side track le hehe. lol.

i kinda dota awhile. AWHILE only la. oh ya. the table we sat hor. got 7. i was on the 5th one. den the first 4 all girls. den 2 more gals sat on the 6th and 7th hehe. laaaaaa. not implying anything.

den finally emeleen finish 7 papers. OMG SEVEN LOL. SEVEN U NOE!? i finish like half only. LOL. caz i dunno how to do mah. dun blame me >"<... den den when she finally finish, we watched russell peters lol! lalalala

den we ate mac again xD.

she had big mac. i had mega macspicy. (REGRETTED LOL)

ya.. chit chatted alot.

alot of ghost stories = =...

den.. go home lo~.

THE END.

TUE!. -DEL panick Mode.

studied in sch den went to nick hse to continue lol!. thanks nic for the dinner :D.
thanks eunice for the helpppppp.

KK thats all. bye!

penguin~

2009-02-20T16:22:00.002+08:00

Some TO-DO list in my next few weeks :D...

-AEL exam - tml
-DEL exam - next wed
-27th feb to 1st march - GL camp
-2nd march to 4th march - ECE camp
-6th march - basic theroy test preparation
-9th march to 12 march - NPDS camp
-13th march - basic theroy test
-14th march - dance competition
-15th march till 18? Holiday

and a few more gatherings here and there.
-Classmates
-Np friends
-Dance
-Primary school

busy huh? :)).

penguin!~

2009-02-18T22:55:00.003+08:00

Quick and sharp (and damn short) update!

I feel damn sianz.. becoz I broke a promise that I made weeks ago b4 Sten's B-Day.. Promised him that I'd come and all but end up I didnt.. Was participating in ODAC Orientation at CJ till late and still had to wash up e sch 'coz dirty and got mud everywhere..

I think e Beary Cute present also cannot make up for my mistake. So I wanna officially apologize to you Stenphel. Next outing or smth I treat u 1 meal or smth liddat k?

Seriously feel damn pai-seh sia.. Btw, thanks Kenneth for passing e present to him. =)

.:Jeong:.

2009-02-14T21:49:00.005+08:00

ok. i offically turned 18 yesterday.

shall go into detail the whole day.

morning take bus to sch for lessons :).

had business fianance quiz. :))

ITS A QUIZ.

teacher helped me for 15 questions hehe.

got full marks :))..

went to meet nick.

we took bus to my hse.

he plyaed guitar hero and hang around for abit.

den shawn came.

den tson came.

WEEE den we dota LOL.

kk den those 3 guys helped me bring stuff down. free labour :P. thanks guys :)

next was yu yuan :).

she helped me set fire. sweet rite :). thanks ball ball xD. oh ya, she also got me a present. a chocolate :). marks and spencer de o.o..

kk next, eng teck the man came.

he helped me set up audio system sia. COOL RITE OMG.

DEN KENNETH CAME. woot he early sia. thanks kenneth for ur wine chocolate :D. i ate 2 juz now LOL.

mmm... den next to come was pam and ck :).

we were shouting across the road lol. caz too many cars go past then they cannot cross xD.

den andy and jolin came together. :)). thanks for coming early hehe.

next was. han sen, leow meng and yong hua. thanks for the monkey and penguin STICK LOL. i loved it. P.S, the penguin stick my mother goped it. she wan to use LOL.

i met those 3 at the bus stop. den decided to wait for melissa too.

den ting wei, jia wen and cecilia also arriving but from another bus stop.

den they 4 appear together at different locations.

was taking the penguin stick and waving around LOL.

kk shhh. i noe. 18 le.

after that, the npds gang came. brandon, sherlyn, ner, choon tat, tisha, edna. thanks npds for the present :))~ love it .

den uncle eric's family came. thanks for the ang pow hehe.

and uncle winson! I LOVED THE SHIRT HAHA.

slowly people started coming, sorry i cannot remember the order lol. khai, sabrina, don, siangling, beehui, li teng.

thanks khai and sabrina for the mug :P. finally 18 huh? XD.

and the present that don gaf me? TISHA LOL. he kinda like carried her over, and said, here, ur present LOL.

siang ling for the veri veri veri big birthday card, 2 cakes and a bag of chips :D i finishing the chips le LOL.

bee hui for ur CHOCOLATE LOL. kinda obvious due to the packing lol.

li teng for ur hilarious bdae card LOL. i read and laugh at the same time.

kk few highlights. we took alot of photos :). all in face book hehe.

i had to dance wif jolin, ner and tisha = =... but was fun hehe.

k k k , after blowing cake. had to take out the candle... NPDS style = =. dunno which idiot keep tryin to push my face into the cake. RAWR. xD.

den took pics with all the different groups of people :)...

1st - family!
2nd - uncle eric family and uncle winson family.
3rd - pri sch mates :))
4th - my GOOD FRIEND KENNETH LOL.
5th - my course mates :)
6th - shawn LOL. the pai kia :(
7th - my dance parter nerriza! :)
8th - my cha cha formation dance partner tisha!
9th - all the guys from npds :)
10th - pamala! my jive formation partner :)
11th - the girls from npds! first time take pic kena surrounded by so many girls :P
12th - the npds family :)

when taking pic that time, i can hear yh at the back. CH CH CH. screw u :O.

after take finish, i had to give out the cake. :) thanks yu yuan again for cutting it LOL.

after giving out the cake finish. was opening prezzies time :).

i kinda named out all the presents already.

LEMME SAY THE PROCESS OF OPENING NPDS's preesnts.

i open the first one. say must let dem tie my feet together. ok lo :O. den must serve dem drinks.

thanks ner for helping me get the drinks hehehe. and eng teck + khai for supporting me.

den they all pour the water on me. see la. waste water. tsk tsk.

den had to dance macarena = =... thanks ar ner LOL.

deeeen had to use a coffee stirrer to... KK SHALL NOT SAY. skip.

next was being pushed into the pool. LOL. kk i expected that. so i did not resist. but guess what, they forgot to tau pok me muahahaha. happy.

mm. den i was pushed into the pool by tson too lol.

den everyone tarted to leave :(. sobs.

but oh well. was fun :))

a few stayed up at my hse to chit chat :).

siang ling, bee hui, yu yuan, thomson.

we chit chat for more den an hour :D. took some pics and they left.

i sent siang ling home :). and i reached home around 1am. but before i reached home.

i met wan ru! another pri sch fren lol!. cool rite haha.

but she dun recognise me = =... but after i said my name she rememeber lol.

yup. fun day.

special thanks to-

my parents - organising this bbq :)
my maid - cooking and preparing the food :)
my bro - taking photos :)
my sis - entertaining the guests lol :)
yu yuan - who did alot of things. can i owe u lunch? :)
thomson, shawn, hui xiang and yong hua - for bbq-ing :)
han sen - for playing guitar songs :)
eng teck - setting up songs :)
nick - who came early haha! and helped to move things. :)
kenneth - UR PRESENCE is good enuff man :)
zhi yong - who gaf me present but can't come. aww man :(
khai, sabrina - i hoped u 2 didnt feel outcasted :) thanks for coming!
edna - i m sure u pulled the strings for my present :) and sending me the photos too!
han sen - for playing the guitar :P thanks man haha.
npds family - for turning up and making the party so lively! :)
siang ling, bee hui - for bothering to come haha! :D
li teng - though was short, but thanks for coming too! :)
uncle eric family + uncle winson family - HAHA thanks for sparing ur time to come to my party :)
my neighbours - thanks! :D...
alyssa - for her present XD. but shes not there too :(

did i miss anyone? o.o...

hopefully not.

did i?

OH YA.

bubble! my doggie. - for entertaining some of u all :P.

and lastly. myself! WOOT LOL.

Note - I M STILL SINGLE TONIGHT :P

long post hehe.

oh ya. thanks to those who sms-ed, msn-ed, facebook-ed and friendster-ed me by wishing me happy birthday :).

yup yup yup. I THINK NO MORE LE.

THE END.

penguin!

thank you for coming :).

2009-02-04T20:17:00.002+08:00

OKKK. long time no post.

kk 3 weeks to exams.

10 days to V day.

9 days to my birthday + bbq :))

weee.

EXAMS OMG EXAMS. screw exams xD... proberly can't score very well. BUT WILL BUCK UP AFTER MY BDAE! i promise. den must jio people go study. = =... if not really gg. kenneth chen. dun suan me = =...

kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk VALENTINE's day :(. still alone. Finding valentine date! omg. i sound despo LOL!. nono worst come to worst, jio a few guy frens go out play! kk set. but BUT BUT BUT... girl > GUYS :((. LOL. kk shh.

OMGGGG my bdae wee. gonna be 18. ah wtheck. gonna be like OLD. but BUT can take driving lisence! SHOIK ARR. heh. KK KENNETH AND ZHIYONG, u 2 beta come the bbq.
well.. quite alot of people coming the bbq. confirmed people are over 30+ already LOL. theres still unconfirmed people :/... sry i can't invite everyone though.

few updates in my life~... dance is still as fun as usual, i m still as crazy in class. THANKS TO NICK + KAI. u 2 asses. oh well :))~... thanks to eunice, huishan and fang yuen for helpin me in my studies :))~ and ben for helpin me in compro LOL. yup yup.

SPEAKING of that, TML GOTTA DO business fianance project... which is due on ... FRI! :D.. we haven even start LOL. GG. hehehe. oh wells.

urms urms. i guess thats about all?

turning 18 in 9 days :(( emo.

PENGUIN~!!

the bird who can't fly.

hi sitoh!

2009-02-02T23:04:00.002+08:00

hmmm..

just did the left brain right brain test thingie..

hmmm..

it says i uses..

The results show your brain dominance as being:
Left Brain 48%
Right Brain 52%

You are more right-brained than left-brained. The right side of your brain controls the left side of your body. In addition to being known as right-brained, you are also known as a creative thinker who uses feeling and intuition to gather information. You retain this information through the use of images and patterns. You are able to visualize the "whole" picture first, and then work backwards to put the pieces together to create the "whole" picture. Your thought process can appear quite illogical and meandering. The problem-solving techniques that you use involve free association, which is often very innovative and creative. The routes taken to arrive at your conclusions are completely opposite to what a left-brained person would be accustomed. You probably find it easy to express yourself using art, dance, or music. Some occupations usually held by a right-brained person are forest ranger, athlete, beautician, actor/actress, craftsman, and artist.

Your Left Brain Percentages
48%
Linear (Your most dominant characteristic)
40%
Sequential
20%
Reality-based
17%
Logical
9%
Symbolic
7%
Verbal (Your least dominant characteristic)

Your Right Brain Percentages
37%
Concrete (Your most dominant characteristic)
36%
Holistic
34%
Random
24%
Intuitive
24%
Fantasy-oriented
13%
Nonverbal (Your least dominant characteristic)

errr..
okay..

don't understand.
and lazy to read the description.
heh.

not much difference hor.
48% and 52%.
does this mean i have been using my brain well?

like.
not lopsized usage.

hmmm.

go try.

quite lame.
but good to pass time if you're bored.

heh.

http://wherecreativitygoestoschool.com/vancouver/left_right/rb_test.htm

BYE!~

2009-01-26T21:52:00.002+08:00

heh.

interesting way to spend chinese new year.
(:

went for a about 8km run.
haha.

quite shiok.

especially sprinting downhill nearing the end.
heh.

sprinted past the bicycle sliding downhill.

haha.
slow.

hmmmm..
didn't see the solar eclipse.
):

too bad weather to see..

maybe can see it on 22nd july.
heh.

ahh..

stenphel.
have you invited zhiyong yet?

i'm not going if he isn't going.
and that is final.
xD

happy niu year everyone!
(:

BYE!~

2009-01-26T00:09:00.003+08:00

Few minutes past then already but what da heck..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEEPS!!! =)

Have a great year ahead..

I've got lots of things to blog about but just dont know where to start.. also because I cant find the motivation to.. probably explains the M.I.A. status..

2 things to mention for now:
* Cola's Farewell / T10 CNY gathering was fun. Much appreciated!
* Sorry for not attending CNY celebrations at CJ, ODAC. Wasnt informed at all.. Hoped yall made the school smile.. =)

Big changes this year aint helping me feel better at all.. worse actually..

Wonder if I'll ever find my old self again from the abyss..

Oh yeah. Btw, Chnl 8 celebration is boring.. Their fortune-teller also said that this year my lucky number is 4..

Translate it into chinese, associate it with the 1st character you think of and you get... ...

q(-_-")p

*sigh*

Updates soon? Idk. Cant really guarentee that..

(insert your own Farewell phrase here)

.:Jeong:.

2009-01-22T21:36:00.002+08:00

六年，大约十场。
可惜，无一获胜。

今天，差身而过。
有人，遭受讽刺。

脸得，继续微笑。
学到，人不可信。

心头，苦味十足。
但是，就是无奈。

眼泪，硬强忍住。
身躯，坚持挺直。

没人，能够了解。
我心，心中之痛。

2009-01-18T20:11:00.002+08:00

oh man!

i feel super dumb now!

i was attempting this stupid differential equation since like 4pm?

now its like 812pm??

and.
and!
AND!

I FINALLY DID IT!!

guess how.

i forgot about the rule for indefinate integration.
always +constant behind the integrated result.

no wonder i keep getting v=x.
when i'm supposed to get v=x+c to substitution 0 and -1 in!!

AHHHH~!!!!
><

2009-01-16T21:36:00.002+08:00

yawn..

first week of school is over..

very tiring..

for 1.
my classroom is at the 5th storey..
need to climb 5 levels everyday to get to my class..
5 back down to go to the canteen..
and to lecture theatres..

for 2.
i'm the htc now..
as in.
i'm a home tutorial counsellor..
something like class chairman/moniter..
or as you put it just now.
the sai kang warrior of the class..

for 3.
assignments are coming quite fast already..
and we are just getting started..
oh man.

for 4.
i keep getting pissed off.
i can't help it..
):

for 5.
i'm sleeping so late that its so early.
like.
for example.
my body is currently operating on a 1hour sleep from 430am to 530am..
current time is 940pm..
my mind can like almost feel slightly detached from my body..
cool.

for 6.
srg 2009 coming up.
training.
training.
and more training.
which means.
level 6 chem lab.
or woodlands ring.
either one is still tiring to travel to.

for 7.
i have to keep carrying the laptop around because of training.
tiring.

for 8.
i just ate a jellybean that tastes horribily like toothpaste.
bleh...

for 9.
i now only take the lift one way down.
i now only walk upstairs to 11th storey everyday after school.
with the laptop.
and my slingbag.
and my waterbottle.

for 10.
1-9 is probably going to repeat itself again for the next few days.

bleh.
><

how i'll survive all these if not for common breaks, 153?
i don't know.

2009-01-11T20:10:00.002+08:00

heya peeps. haha. sorry kenneth long time no update. zy how are u doing yea. mmm... well, its been 11 days after the new year. can't see whats the big fuss about new year man. its like 1 sec different from 2008 LOL.

so ya... mmm been busy with school stuff, lessons blah blah etc. but still loving dance :))~ people in dance rawks lol. hehe. todae went out at 7am... it was decided at 2 30am that 4 of us gonna meet and eat breakfast den basket ball. den when 7 15am, me and shawn reach le. WE TOT WE LATE U NOE. den that arse kira reach at 8am. freak.

but tson worst. he pang seh us = =... NVM. OH YA. KENNETH CHEN, POST UR PIC OF URSELF DRESSED UP AS EDWARD ! omg lol. OR SEND ME THRU MSN. kk back to the topic. den we 3 went to N and B to have breakfast. ate dao huay :D~

den we go play bball~. THAT SHAWN SUCK AT ABC LOL. dam funny. he air-ball like atleast 8 times. but hor, when play normally that time he like dam zhai LOL.

den lepak lepak when 4 other people came to the court. see the 4 play for like 20mins. den we go mac. eat ice cream xD... den that shawn ki siao one. he go in mac, den go to the gal at the counter, " i wan mac chicken meal"... the gal replied dun hav at this time den he SHOUTED "WHY?!" LOL. den the gal chua tio.

poor thing la the gal LOL. her name was edalyn. saw the name tag xD... den shawn got ice cream sundae. den i was my turn, i pointed to shawn and said, i wan the same as him LOL. den kira turn, he point at me and said, i wan the same as him. LOLOLOL. the gal like blur blur.

den after finish we ask shawn go apologise to the gal for shouting LOL. at first shawn shy shy one. den he suddenly say " i got balls, k i go" LOL. den he go infront of the gal, the gal said "hi sir, wat do u want" GUESS WHAT SHAWN SAID LOL.

he said "sorry ar" LOL. den the gal stun again. me and kira down there laughing like 2 idiots LOL. den kk went home after that. went kira hse help him install l4d. blah blah etc. den went out wif family to buy CNY clothes. blehx. ok~ thats about it ^^... oh ya, my father cooked dinner :D. was veri nice LOL. got crabs... clams... sotong... omg lol!... ok la post until here. hehe.

SOO ZHI YONG. POST SOMETHING!

2009-01-10T21:16:00.002+08:00

oh oh!

the last 2 days were sooooooo fun!!

yesterday was thanksgiving dinner.

totally fooled her with ivy by saying i'm not dressing up
xD

i think it kinda worked.

the hair worked fine, althought its not really brown.
the white wasn't really good.. but i think it more or less worked out.
did that make sense??

haha..

got louis and amos to dress me up in the toilet while everyone was downstairs..
the ivy came in to help..

strange.

didn't want to go out at first.

then.
aiya.
don't care much la.

plus all the encouragement they were giving.

okay.

then i walked into the church hall...

WHOA.
was like.

everyone just stared at me.

freak.

haha..

father luke was like..
'what i you supposed to be!!'

then represented yc with cassie for dressing up..

i can't catwalk for nuts.

haha..

but quite fun though..

and coming to think of it..

i think i shouldn't have washed the make up off so fast..

should have taken some more photos first..
heh.

yup yup..
then today..

was yc teaparty!

haha..

it was fun..

woke up at 8am..
and started to prepare stuff..

reached church late..
by 5 minutes..

changed 3 buses to get there.
heh.
lucky have bus concession.

yup yup..

preparing the food was good...
washing the ant-infested cambro was ewwww....

so sick.

no idea why some people can be so inconsiderate and just leave the cambros unwashed after borrowing it for their own event/function.

nehhhhh.

yea..

then was teaparty proper..

was very fun..

i had alot of fun..

i think i more or less made a fool out of myself again at the testimonal..
but..
oh well.
xD

yup yup..

that's all for today..

so fun!

xD

shall go read book now..
can't be bothered to do holiday homework.
xD

oh yea.
i dressed up as edward cullen by the way.
(:

BYE!~

2009-01-07T22:05:00.002+08:00

hmmm.
okay.
so..

now i'm King Herod the second in modern culture.

not bad.

i shall not complain here.
just that i'm king.

and i'm still being told to do stuff.

gee.

fine.

i don't really care you know?

2009-01-03T23:14:00.004+08:00

zhiyong..
you okay?
stenphel and i are still wondering if you are like still emoing..
after so long.

how are you?

anyways..
nothing much to talk about..
just that 2009 is beginning to really start..
not really fun i think.
bleh.

yup yup..
and tomorrow is the commissioning mass..
strange..
need to wear white..

its like confirmation round 2 la..
oh.
we're being REconfirmed!
haha..

then its going to be boofday!
heh.
its actually 'booth day'
but yc kinda turned it inside out to call it 'boof'
was quite fun..
i think we will get a good haul this year..
yay (:

our banner! (:

takoyaki!

heh.

i drew this cute little thingie..

supposed to be an octopus..

just that it got 4 legs..

so its a quadropus!

haha..

and..

according to jac..

if you look at it upside down..

it will look like a water bunny!

with the ears and the bobtail.

heh.

hmm..

shall post some other pictures..

oh.

this cat..

is so cute!!

heh.

this was what happened..

it popped out from the bushes..

looked at my direction..

then i saw it..

and i 'meow'ed at it..

guess what..

it came over to me!

i was like.

whoa.

yea..

then it hung around the bottom of the stone bench..

and fell asleep.

yea.

that's it falling asleep.

it like slept in that sitting position la.

heh.

so cute! xD

yea.

then.

it decided that the sitting position is too uncomfortable to sleep..

so it jumped onto the chair..

lie down flat..

then sleep.

so cute!

heh.

yea.

then later this cat appeared..

and see the cat?

this black cat was like poking the head out of the drain

then.

this cat was so protecive of its territory..

it woke up..

stared at the black cat..

then chased after the black cat..

whoa.

yea.

then there was screeching and cat fight sounds coming from the drain.

both cats never came back.

probably licking their wounds somewhere else..

heh.

alright.

stenphel and zhiyong blog!

i'm going to stop here.

heh.

BYE!~

2009-01-01T00:44:00.001+08:00

hey everyone!

happy new year!

i wish you a happy new year,
i wish you a happy new year,
i wish you a happy new year,
and a merry christmas(2009)!
xD

sorry abit high now
(:

zhiyong!!
you mia for so long!!
come back!

everyone missed you!
*crosses fingers*
xD

okay

have fun everyone (:

BYE!~

2008-12-31T20:53:00.001+08:00

I'm still alive.. barely..

.:Jeong Su:.

2008-12-23T03:55:00.001+08:00

okay.

this is an attempt to make this blog slightly more lively..

hmmm...

its 3.55am in the morning.

i'm tired.
and i'm hungry.

the same problem just keeps bothering me..
why can't i just come up with a proper one this time??

bahhh!

2008-12-23T02:41:00.001+08:00

heh.
yea.
1 month no post.

that's 'cos i was lazy to post for a month.

i think i should go and sleep..
but the night feels so nice..

makes me wonder how it feels like to be a bird flying in the night sky..
hmmm...

its all going to be over is it?
gee.
i can't wait..

BYE!~

2008-12-22T22:06:00.002+08:00

lolol. omg 1 month no post HAHA. :O

i juz came back from shang hai ytd.

shang hai sucks = =... dun go lol.

nothing much de.

ya
...

weeeee.

christmas coming

....

O_O.

tml got npds xmas celebration :)...

might hav a tour group youngsters outing next mondae.

i met quite a few teens.

yup yup.

happy.

sry lurhs. dunno wat to blog.

-penguin

p.s... i saw real penguins in china :)... but majiam underwater world ><

2008-11-22T21:11:00.002+08:00

wow.
can you believe it?

my legs are still tired.
haha.

from just now all the way until now.
cannot even walking steps properly.
heh.

yea.
very fun leh.
next time we go play again okay?
heh.

next time.
find another time.

zhiyong super blur at the mrt.
xD

yup yup.

bowling..
heh.
let's not talk about that shall we.
(:

yea.

like that lor.

politics.
haiz.
shan't say much.

just that that will be headline news.

"As Singapore slumps into a technical recession. IHM church catechism has began their own retrenchment exercise in a bid to attain allocative efficiency"

and the axe falls.

oh wells.

kenneth chen is now switching gears.
entering full throttle mode now.

full speed ahead!

first up!

ocip in batam.

then sec1orientation camp.

then mawai.

then concamp!

then i'm free!!

yay!
xD

haha.
abit high now.

yea.

oh yea.
i forgot something.

i think i should really start eating that chinese medicine thingie again.
just now in the bus got motion sickness.
got all giddy and dizzy.
until i got off.

yea.
then just now before dinner.
i got up from the sofa.
walked over to the dinning table.

and i blacked out.
from the pooling of blood in the legs.
then brain not enough.

yea.
then i almost lost balance.
and i fell forward.
and.

lucky i stopped in time.

'cos when i regained my sight after 1-2 seconds.
i found out i was like 5cm more to smashing myself into the bowl.
i was like.
whoa.

my sister was like.
whoa.

yea.

okay.
shall go eat the thingie before something really happens to me.

heh.
stupid blood circulation.
probably have low blood pressure too.

oh wells.

medicine here i come.
stupid pill.

heh.

sunday will be a very busy day.

BYE!~

2008-11-20T21:52:00.010+08:00

man i'm tired.

woke up early today.

well.

relative to the other days.

woke up at 930am.

when i was supposed to meet ivy at 10.

heh.

yea.

then got myself ready by like 945am.

smsed her that i'm coming.

then my mum ordered me to eat breakfast first.

i packed to eat in the car.

yea.

then when my mum turned the corner to pick ivy up.

so strange you look from afar.

'cos the five boxes were taller than you.

yea.

then i found out how ivy likes to walk without being able to see what's in front of her.

pile so many boxes up that it was like much taller than her.

yea.

then did the booking of facilities with uncle james.

and koped 3 rims of paper.

then trained down to suntec to the popular book fair.

then walk round and round and round and round and round looking for logs stuff.

and.

heh.

ivy and i totally ocd-ed with the pens!

haha.

sorted them out into colours in 2 minutes.

xDD

yea.

then bought stuff.

around $130.

heh.

stupid markers.

whiteboard markers or coloured markers?

different people different instructions.

then just decided not to buy.

yea.

then ate at the foodcourt.

trained back down to heartland mall.

haha.

so funny to walk fast with ivy.

and totally see her struggling to keep up la.

yea.

then.

bought more stuff from heartland mall.

took 136 back to church.

see.

i told you.

the 5minutes thingie for 136 still works for me.

yea.

then did the logs stuff more.

heh.

stupid key.

who knew the key was supposed to be taken out horizontally not vertically?

yea.

then went back home at around 5+.

the bus came in around 5 minutes again.

yea.

then someone called me on the bus.

humph.

yea.

like that lor.

then come back home stone stone slack slack sleepy sleepy.

i think i shall sleep early today.

hmm.

going out on saturday ar..

we just meet in one place then decide what to do la.

i lazy plan.

we impromptu on the spot decide.

heh.

yea.

was quite disappointing.

i expected so.

as if telling anything will help.

will just don't care anyways.

no one bothers to listen.

so no point.

was very disappointed.

2008-11-19T23:47:00.002+08:00

okay.

today was.
strange.
impatient.
irritated.
stupid.
pitifull.
strange.

reason was simply.
my mum agreed for me to bring this kid out.
simply because he was migrating soon.

no offense.
but i don't have much patience with problematic kids.

so.
had some weird trouble finding him meeting up with him.
then he started to talk some strange terms loudly with i have never heard before.

and before this.
i told myself.
'okay, let's just pretend i'm facilitating him.'

yea.
then i was like.
okay...
when he did that.

so we entered he lift.
he continued on loudly.
the people in the lift all turn.
then i told him.
'okay. stop. i don't understand what you are talking about. tell me what it is later okay?'
lucky he listened.

yea.
then asked him to choose a movie to watch.
he chose high school musical.

okay.
fine.
since i'm entertaining him for the day.
i don't mind watching a second time.
i missed the starting 5minutes for the first time anyways.

so i paid $6 to watch 5minutes of this movie.
heh.

yea.
he wouldn't stop fidgeting in his seat.
i was abit.
'haiz' and slightly embarrassed.
'cos he was shaking my chair and the other 2 chairs of the people on my side.

i specifically chose a side seat.
just to 'counter' that.
oh wells.

then went to superbowl.

on the bus he played my psp.

he definetely had fun scoring own-goals.
he used liverpool by the way.

yea.
'cos he was like.
trying to surpress the urge to burst out laughing.
loudly.
very loudly.

i was like.
okay...

yea.
then went to superbowl.
srjc bowling was having training.
so i took him to the arcade instead.

spent almost $10 on one game because he like it.
okay.
fine.
just let him play lor.
just that i was the one paying.

yea.

then i took him home although the srjc people were leaving.
i decided against playing bowling with him.
can't really predict what will happen so i decided not to risk it.

brought him home.
and he wanted to play the ps2.

i ignored him and turned on the computer.
then my mum said don't play first.
she's going to cook then can eat already.

then dinner.
he did the thing i hated the most.
he just ate half of the little rice and veg.
and said.
'OHHHH! i finish already! don't want to eat already!'
then i was like.
'like this called finish ar'
'cos i really don't like people who don't finish the food that people spend the effort preparing for you.
'yea! i don't want already! HAHAHAHA'
then he stalked off the the tv to the ps2.

i was like.
what the freak.

then i just finished my food.
washed up.
then went to the room to read..

my mum obviously knew i was pissed off at him for that.
she knows i cannot stand people who waste food.

so i used the computer and read eclipse.
my mum came in and asked me very gently that he want to play ps2 and help him set up.

okay.
fine.
for you ar.
not for him.

so i set it up.
then took my book.
and read behind on the sofa as he played.

he confirm had fun crashing cars around in need for speed underground 2.
geez.

then my sister came home.
i retreated in the room.

read read read.
then i heard my mum ask him whether he wanted to go home.
he say no. still want to play.
then i look at the time.

oh.
tv show.

so i went out.
saw he was playing metal slug.
then i plugged in 2 players to help him finish the game faster.

yea.
then took him to the bus stop and watched him get on the bus.

how nice of him.
just walked off to board the bus.
didn't even say bye bye.

fine.
whatever.
at least he looked at me from inside the bus to acknowledge my existence.

oh wells.

spent $31 on him today.
gee.
okay.

augustine called me.
25minutes talk.
wow.

yea.

and the station games thingie really gave me a headache.
strange to arrange 6 station masters to 5 stations with 6 groups playing.
yea.

day3!!!
1 more day!!!
not even 24more hours!
like.
finally!!
i'm still alive!!
xD

BYE!~

2008-11-18T17:39:00.006+08:00

okay.

i slept too much today.

like.

woke up at 1pm.

its okay i guess..

probably one of the better ways to past time now.

yea.

and i totally overslept past the ocip meeting time.

haha.

woke up.

saw the sms on my handphone.

then.

'oh crap.'

scrambled up to tell my sister and mum how lame it was to miss a rather important meeting totally..

then went back to sleep after replying my apologies to the sms.

heh.

guess it didn't help when i was playing psp until 3am in the morning.

yup yup.

woke up.

first time was eat lunch.

...

i wasn't even hungry yet la.

i doubt my stomach was even awake then.

then just eat lor.

took me like 1hour to swallow everything.

my sister found it quite surprising that i was eating so slowly..

then play computer..

then read more of eclipse..

man i like this book.

yea.

almost done with this book already.

like.

i just started yesterday.

haha.

yea.

i told someone.

ivy.

'cos cannot keep it to myself already.

haha.

don't tell other people ar.

okay.

maybe when she comes back.

but shhhhh..

day2!

2 more to go!

i found out how similar things were to the book.

haha

BYE!~

2008-11-17T21:00:00.003+08:00

hmm..
today was a strange day..
duh.
something went missing.

today was the 'go-out-on-a-ride-on-your-mum's-car' day

first it was going to the animal hospital
then going to buy lunch in thompson
then went back home.

after lunch.
i got my mum to fetch me down to church to book facilities for the camps.
then drove me to school 'cos i wanted the paper boxes from the photocopying shop.
my mum drove the wrong highway.
had to make one huge u-turn back to school.
the shop close already..
at 3!!
><
then went back home.

then later my sister called me to say her workplace there have the boxes.
so my mum drove me down to her workplace.
koped 7 boxes.
then decided to drive to thompson again to get the printer from her student who was about to migrate away.
drove onto the wrong place again!!
><
drove all the way to lornie road la.
then drove all the way back to thompson.
then went back home.

i think my mum's car fuel used up like 1/3 today.
somemore we refueled before bring my dog to go for checkup..
my dog keep barking at the petrol guy.
he found it very amusing.
but my ears pain.

oh ya.
my arms now have alot of scratches.
seriously alot.
stupid dog.
so scared of the vet.
cling onto my arm like there's no tomorrow.

heh.

yea.
then came back home..
read eclipse..
nice series (:

yea.
i came to a conclusion that edward was rather silly and rash.
but at that situation maybe it was forgivable.
went down to italy without double confirming.

oh wells.

yea.
anything else that was interesting..?

hmmm..
yea.

i'm like.
a guy or a girl ar?
no.
not physically or mentally.
like.
the way people treat me.
don't think dirty.

yea.
'cos cassie now claims she 'treats me like one of the girls'
..
heh.
quite funny though.
had someone fuming over that comment.
not sure if it was really or joking..

yea.

oh ya.
then on sunday.
talked to louis and amos about that thing.
yea.
quite strange.
like never had a proper conversation for the past 8months.
suddenly talked for like 1 hour plus.

well.
at least everythings fine now.
(:
yea.
congrats! thank you!
xD

yea.
hmm..
anything else...??

oh that.
that thing...
you silly girl.
very sweet though.
thank you.
(:

that's something to look forward to everyday until friday.
i would have kept to the times.

i like that line that he said.
'nothing of the outside world interests me without you'
how true.
hmm..

day 1!
almost over!
3 more to go!
can't wait
(:

BYE!~

2008-11-08T19:32:00.005+08:00

Name 20 people you can think of right now:
1. stenphel
2. zhiyong
3. shufeng
4. lynette
5. christanto
6. kyle
7. jeanne
8. i-zack
9. renxian
10. raymond
11. rebecca
12. cassie
13. ivy
14. cassie
15. joshua
16. amanda
17. atricia
18. michael
19. louis
20. simon

How did you meet #4?
hmm..
let's see..
PAE 1st intake in cjc..
was in 1t19..
yea.

What would you be if u never met #1?
hmm..!!!
maris stella would be such a bore!!
it just got better when i met #2 as well! (:

What if #9 and #20 dated?
oh. my. god.
renxian and simon!
ew ew ew ew ew ew ew!!
one will be running away super fast and super far while the other will be like trying to chase after him with Bob the camera.
0.o

Describe #3.
funny.
super duper ultra random.
smart but ultra lazy to think.
always late for school.
current record holder for the most number of late-coming. (i think if i remember correctly.. according to mr new...)
#4's ahem.

Is #8 attractive?
i-zack!
yea!
sure!
he's super attractive and damn bloody hot!

Describe #7
dancer.
has braces.
always claim i look damn cute and like a cat
i'm not a cat~~~~
meow.

What would you do if #18 confesses to you that she likes you?
OMG!
WHAT THE FREAK!!
WHAT KIND OF LUCK IS THIS!!
MICHAEL YIIN OF ALL PEOPLE!!
can i change to someother people??
pleaseeeeee???
EWwWWWWWW!!!
I CANNOT IMAGINE!!!
AHHHHH!!!!
SHOO! SHOO!
PSYCHO CHEF WHO IS TRYING TO POISON EVERYONE!!
EWWWWWWW.
*vomits blood and dies*

What language does #15 speak?
oh.
him.
english i guess..
from just now he seem to have bad chinese so i suppose just english.
and a rather strange accent and pronounciations at times....

Who is #9 going out with?
heh.
i don't know..
with simon?
hah!

How old is #16?
amanda's 17..
so is atricia..
and coincidentally they share the same birthday..
and of some strange coincidence they are sisters..

When is the last time you spoke to #13?
just now.
smsed her to report safe landing.
and lunching tomorrow after meeting!
bring the puppet!!

Who is #2's fav. band/singer?
zhiyong ar..
hmm..
i have absolutely no idea..
but i would suppose he loves the music made by a SAR-21.
xD

Would you ever date #4?
oh.
yea.
sure.
and risk the wrath of someone.
he'll murder me with that gigantic gardening scissors in his house.
rusty somemore.

Would you date #1?
oh.
no.
never.
absolutely not.
not in a million, billion, trillion years.
neither in a trillion and one years and so on.
that's why we don't go out together alone.
just.
wrong!
xD

Is #19 single?
i suppose so..
and guess why he still is..
hmm..

What is #10 last name?
raymond?
yea.
i know.
'cos i always grab his chinese paper to laugh at him missing out on beating me again.
xD
raymond ang rui xiang.

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
oh.
gee.
strange weird luck we have.
beats me.
see how lor...
oh! look! a bird!
xD

School of #3?
cjc.

Where does #6 live?
i have no idea at all.
somewhere where piercing is convienent i suppose...

What is your favourite thing about #5?
chris!
where do i begin..
he's funny.
lame.
helpful.
cheerful.
bubbly.
smart.
and his surname is getting cheaper per barrel.
maybe his surname.
xD

Would you think of killing #14?
cassie.
ho ho ho!
maybe..
and get my head chopped off by someone..
nah.
i rather not try.

Tag 5 peopleI would like to tag....
i lazy tag 5 people.
stenphel and zhiyong do.
(:

2008-11-05T21:29:00.002+08:00

ok. this is a ty post LOL. special thx to sherlyn who sms-ed me at 7am+ this morning to ask if i m ok :D. also thx to dolce auntie xD. k la dolce jie jie for expressing her concern in the lib :D. also ty angie for asking. I THINK. lol. also to tisha who i met in the lib :D huxiang also for askin the moment i stepped into the classroom. THANKS TO EMELEEN WHO LAUGHED AT ME !$!#$#@$@ lol.

and thx to edna who showed her concern online. jun jie also :D. do did KS. did i miss out anyone? OH YA. OMG OMG OMG HOW COULD I FORGET HAHAHA.

CHEN SHI AN KENNETH <<<>

since i m here, post abit about todae. emeleen was like telling me things about a guy when i was doing computer programming -.-... lol. but i kinda read them LOL. thx shamus for sayin that i came out of jail -.-... i tink khai said something but i 4got LOL.

todae xiang zheng made a sacrifice :D. it will go down in history man!. inside joke of T1A2 LOL.

uh huh. thats about all lurhs.

bai bai!! : D

penguin

2008-11-04T21:31:00.002+08:00

YOOO. its penguin here to post. i noe i veir long nvr post le. but i shall post todae.

todae dam suay lurhs. it was around 5:15pm alex jio me go buy bread. den ok lo i folo. but long Q, so nvr buy. den we went bak studio. i went in le wanted to start talkin to jia wen, but den alex call me go out, say got people wan see me.

i go out le some guy flashed something got picture one, i nvr see carefully and den he wan my student ID. den i flip open got my ic. den he also wan that. -.-... i kinda guessed his from some kind of organization so pass him lurhs.

den alex also nid to gif. den suddenly that guy started talkin on the phone say dunno what nid backup, got 2 suspects. I WAS LIKE WTH O_O. den i tried to block him, for fear he might stole our IC. den that guy ask us sit down at the grandstand area. den i was like, "who are u"... den he show me the card again. HE WAS A WARRENT OFFICER O_O.

den by that time got a few dance people gathered around us le. wondering what happen. thx guys! mainly melvin, gino, don, zhi xin, ck, xinxin and sihui. got some others lurhs but i saw these few asking what happen. thx : D

den he started askin us qns like, what were u doin ytd at 2pm. i was like uhh at home lurhs caz got e learning blah blah. den alex also gif his statement. suddenly he ask us take our bags from studio and go the security area in ngee ann poly. i was like wth. and i keep askin for my IC but he dun wan gif. so was alittle panick lurhs.

reach the area, surprised he got entry. O_O. he was call sir criston. and he was like dam fierce la. caz earlier on some dance sport people were askin what happen den i reply lo. den he said " if u wan it publicise it, i can help u." people concern den ask what -_-

den aniwae, another female officer came. her name was christine. den alex was called out by the christon guy out for questioning for about 25mins. den another officer called francis came. den i had to stand outside with christine. she was a veri nice officer :D. she was from ngee ann too . cool right. we talked alot about all the CCAs HAHA. with a police officer. xD. den that francis guy proberly lookin at the cctv of the theft case was looking at me. proberly doing comparison. (later i shall tell u all what happen about the case)

oh ya, at that point of time i saw a couple of people asking me what happen. like sherlyn, nerriza and kahhao. thx for the concern :D. oh ya, jia wen, ting wei and cecilia too! and melvin again LOL. sry if i 4got anyone.

den after that they do a bag check on me. den ask me to go to clementi police centre ALONE. ok lurhs den i go. outside sch gate saw cecilia again. thx for the support and the sms :D. thx kahhao for the sms too. and pamela + brandon for their concern.

reach there looked for 1 guy called ming xiang. hes also quite a nice officer :D. den ok lurhs. got some questions here and there. den my father came. asked me signed some paper sayin what my statements were right and den can leave lurhs. kinda left alex there. but alex asked us to go first lol.

ok for information about the case. its some laptop kena stolen + 1 atm card that had $2000SGD withdrawn from it. den the atm cctv caught picture of 2 person. and den juz nice that 2 person looked like me and alex. AND DEN REALLY JUST NICE I WAS WITH ALEX AT THAT TIME WHEN THE OFFICER SAW US. den kena caught -_-. liddat lurhs. but luckily, ytd had e learning, so was all the way at home. :D so i m SAFE.

yup. thats about all lurhs. I NEVER WENT FOR DANCE T_T. kinda spent my time in the police station. oh well~

TATA. penguin!

2008-10-30T22:36:00.002+08:00

Guess right now I ain't feeling that shitty anymore..
Sorry to make you all worried..
Thanks for all the moral support..

-1T10-
Kian How, Germaine, Chiaps, Charmaine, Damian, Yi Xi, Cherlynn, Mei Xi, Gong Hua, Guan Ling, yada-yada...

~ODAC Batch XI~
Cheryl, John, Donna, Deborah, Jian Li, Mathias, Jin Shi, Linh, Maurice, etc. etc...

Kinda appreciate it.. I really do..

but I still hate that reality I have to face... *sigh*

Anyways, STITCH! I heard tmr your class got Halloween Party! I'm jealous.. =P
Must go there, have fun, take photos and post them here ok? =)

t-t-f-n, tata for now~~~

.:Jeong:.

*must try and push to go Nov XP!!! (>_<")

2008-10-28T17:38:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling very very warm now.

i need a thermometer.

anyone?

2008-10-25T23:42:00.006+08:00

Promo results:
Maths = U
Lit = E
Geog = U
Econs = U
GP = S
*Mid-yrs also like crap..

Need I say more?

Retainment is not an option...

like WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS? I might as well not even study before promos...

so I wasted my friggin' time studyin during the past few fuckin' weeks izzit?

bloody hell.. My Econs teacher also lie to me.. gave me a call on my HP to tell everyone in my class everyone passed (at least an S or above). And it just so happens that I receive a friggin' U.. FUCK THIS MAN! WHY DA FUCK U HAVE TO GIMME FALSE HOPE?

Stupid ____ swells up durin' one of the PW periods.. Complimented by teacher and then act big-shot... Think you so perfect ah? Who helped u behind while u dry-run presenting.. you think you have no flaws ah? Act until liddat.. Was about to accept you as a friend durin' the past again until I came to do ur meeting for PW at home.. You treat everyone like ur dogs izzit? cb..

It's damn fucking pain to see everyone smiling in their respective LTs receiving their results shouting,
"Yay! I passed..."
"Shiok ah! I got a B for ____"
"Heng ah.. still can promote.."

FUCK YOU MAN! I SWEAR TO GOD I HEAR ANOTHER ONE OF YOU SHITHEADS SHOUTING THIS AND I'M GONNA FUCKIN' RIP YOUR HEAD OFF!

Hurts even more to look at my friends step up to J2 while I sit at the corner feeling happy for them..

ji bai..

I need to find a fuckin' way to ease this pain..

maybe I should take up smokin' or something so I can get high and forget all this crap..

Army of Two seems to be doin' the job so far.. but I'm about to finish the whole game so I need an alternative.. and fast...

This shit is seriously affecting me.. I cant see any hope in JC life anymore.. especially losing my friends.. 1T10.. ODAC.. CJC pri-&-sec sch friends..

How am I to face you all with my head up as high again?

I'm retaining a friggin' year.. I can never catch up to you guys again.. Lest the BIG MAN PAUL allows me to promote to J2... Hell, he may even kick me outta CJC... 7th Nov............ *WOW! I CANT WAIT!!!* ................

People are gonna look back at me and say inside their hearts (or behind my back)
"Hey! Isnt that the guy who retained.." (J2s)
"Hey! Your class got retainee annot? Have ah? What's his name?" (J1s)
I dunno whether to feel angry or sad when people pity me.. or should I say IF???

At least this will probably wake me up somehow I guess..
hopefully..
shit man I've spent 1 year of my pathetic life stayin at the same spot in this god-forsaken education system..

I've looked back at all the things I've done and accomplished by the end of this year. The sms-es, blogs, other things.. True enough, this would probably be my most memorable year ever since I've actually kept track of what i've done for an actual year.. *sarcasm*

I dont wanna say goodbye to these people..

Not to the class..
Not to ODAC.. (esp. since we actually been to an XP..)

Speaking of XP, I cant go to Nov XP since I already failed the criteria by failing my promos. There goes the shitstorm of memories that I could have kept if I actually went to Nov XP..

Then again, maybe nobody cares... I've just read some of my ODAC-ers blogs and virtually seeing them havin' fun.. Why cant I be the same?

Am I different?

Am I too quiet? Should I open up more? what?

tell me..

Hell.. Nobody probably cares abt me at all.. It's like I'm non-existant.. Even my classmate's friend have no idea that I'm in ODAC. *Thanks...*

Guess I'm just a shadow behind u peeps huh... all this sht about Batch XII.. I guess it's gonna work for me..

It's not that I dont want to face you guys anymore.. It's just that I dont have the guts to see you guys anymore..

especially during Nov XP planning.. Bloody hell, I dont wanna rub it in..

I'd join u guys in planning and try to contribute somehow.. But only if I feel better... Right now.. it's definitely no...

I just dont understand.. Why does a 'relatively' good person retain J1 in ODAC each year? Izzit some fuckin' curse? Cause I swear I wanna break it if it's there.. Not just for myself, but for others in the future so they wont ever feel the same way I'm feeling now.. Ever again..

IZ Lim.. I dun even know what to even say or tell him. He's prob the 1st to know abt my results.. He just doesnt show it in his eyes.. He may be laughing his head off deep inside for all I care.. Remembered abt my earlier earlier earlier post abt DMTL (Do More Talk Less).. Guess I aint doin enough huh.. Not coming for mornin runs on time anymore.. Missing during XP planning.. I'm just confused now.. but I sure as hell aint quitting ODAC! No friggin' way.. I'll just have to prove to you I aint giving up.. (I just need to find my standing now..)

Shit affects everything.. Stormed out of PW and emo-ed in some corner of the sch, MIA-ing for abt 1/2 an hr and affecting the bloody class.. All because of this shit known as promos.. People ask me if I'm ok and all, and I keep telling them "yes." but it's all BULLSHIT.. I aint gonna friggin breakdown in front of you people.. I cant afford to..

Some tell me that "It's not the end of the world."
I tell 'em "Yeah, I know.."
but deep down inside I wanted to tell 'em:
"It isnt the end of the world. But it is to MINE!"

Cant throw frisbee for shit anymore.. The light in my eyes fade each time I visit CJC again.. Re-living this shit abt promos again and again and again.. CJC Canoeists probably think I'm weird after actually playing with them for the first time.. Or maybe they're just laughing inside too..

Its saddening and depressing to see the J1 End-of-Year ceremony.. Writing some shit time-capsule to see at the end of J2 Graduation 2 years later.. How they all enjoyed the things that were shown, said and heard there. Bro. PAUL was announcing stuff like famous couple, bubble-blowers, smokers yada yada.. was feeling a bit better because of him until that TJS had to rub it in abt CCA achievements, of ODAC climbing the 7 mtns during Nov in 9 days.. Everyone was like "Wah!" and I was like "Screw you man.. why u gotta bring THAT up? *wallowing in self-pity again*"

Cant freakin' cut myself or suicide because if I happen to die, people who care for me like my family will cry.. They've suffered enough losing a mother.. Now they cant afford to lose a son.. He should have taken her place.. At least their lives would be much better off than today..

I'm in a freaking mess right now.. Those eyes have lost hope and light, my body's failing since I've lost my appetite, eating one small meal a day.. I just cant see any reason to think Life is fun anymore.. I've lost my reason to live already.. They're becoming so distant.. everything..

In the state I'm in, I dun even have the right to chase anybody anymore, let alone try to.. maybe it's because i'm too childish to believe it'll even work out between me and her.. happens only in dreams and fantasy, but i guess reality aint ever the same..

I'm probably gonna turn into self-destruction soon.. I hope to God that the things I break then will all be covered by insurance..

One whole fucking year..

gone just like that..

and in the end:

fail then fail... there aint' nothing you can do to change the statement by the judge, no matter how much you beg for it...

I should have seen it coming.. I should have prepared for it.. stupid fucking promo DEJA-VU dreams.. (earlier post)

-CJC Retainee-

*Btw, gratz Kenny for ur promo results.. dun stress-stress anymore alr ok?

2008-10-19T20:15:00.004+08:00

seriously.
like how can you people not feel irritated by me when i myself feel irritated by myself?
people say they don't mind.
inside i know they do.

today was the second time in three weeks in front of someone else.
i have no idea how many more time will this happen in the coming days..

i'm kinda anticipating one this tuesday..

you know.
there's a reason for me to want to have all those interest things...
that is the only thing that i find comfort in now..
others..
they do nothing but stress me out..

screw this.
screw you kenneth.

2008-10-18T23:01:00.002+08:00

as promised. i m blogging now. uh.

rewind back to alst last thursday :D... that time after dance, went to eat wif tingwei, jia wen and cecilia. was laughing wif dem so hard that almost cannot eat my food lol. btw we were eating at subway and laughing at alot of things.

that was also when i realised jia wen can be veri fierce o.o veri scary. caz we were laughing den a guy thought we laughing at him and look at us. suddenly jiawen face turned so serious and ask him " yes what?" . fierce siol =x. shh beta dun say much if not i die le.

uh fri... did nothing much?

sat, hard the blood donation drive thingy. had to publicise it. yawns. finish le go home lo.

sunday! i ttoally 4got what i did :D... LOL. really la i 4get. zzz. wat did i do mmm. mm.... nope, really cannot remember.

mondae, sch open le! first lesson was at 1pm! pro or not. lol. it was IAC. haha. the teacher was quite fierce. if u alte = must say sry to class lol.

comt was fun xD. i introduce myself as stenphel the penguin wooo.
aniwae, 5pm finish, buy books go home.

tue normal lessons :O. boring blah blah blah. den at night got npsu meeting and dancesport. go home. the end.

wed, wat did i do hmm. cannot remember. skip to thur. : D

thur, nothing much happened todae. :O so also skip LOL.

fri! had ECE camp GL interview haha. went very smoothly. but still dunno if selected or not. den had project meeting. left sch at around 7? thats all. go home , web cam wif 2 people . : O. tio pang seh by the 2nd one caz BF call. <<<>

sat . todae. had blood donation thingy again. at night had dinner. thats all.

overall its kinda a rushed summary of my week xD. oh well.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

penguin.

tata~...

2008-10-14T23:28:00.002+08:00

time: 1130pm

online: 4hours

waiting: 4hours

status: still offline

i think i'm falling sick.

2008-10-14T20:41:00.005+08:00

what rubbish.

congrats in getting yourself into such a position

how can one person's emotions fluctuant as much as i do?

its so bad and its ridiculous.

i have no idea whether to be happy or sad...

stupid la.

i don't really know what to do..

i think i may be better off without that happening.

i think i'm sometimes better off alone actually.

like.. what i say doesn't help..

oh.

and i got back my chinese result.

now i only need to check with t25.

just that...

i don't know how..

heh.

i don't want to write how much i got though..

if you want to know can msn me or something..

at least let me happy for a while until i get back the other results can??

2008-10-13T02:17:00.004+08:00

i got better since wednesday..
then thursday..
then friday..
and maybe saturday..

saturday ended in slight disappointment but it was okay i guess..

friday was kinda awkward for me i guess..
like.
from one to another.

i don't know.
haven't told anyone else yet other than vy and stenphel..
shall see if should tell..
yea..

so technically i regained a friend on friday..
yup.
(:

then it just dropped on sunday.
totally man.

i think i've lost it.

who the hell takes photos of someone they think that they are the friends of their friend?
what the freak?

okay.
fine.
maybe he reads this blog too..
i never know.
like how she knows this.
heh.

yea.
okay.
guess what.
i've been exposed.
i guess he knows by now.
hell.
he should have known like months back.

feel kinda bad though.
it was back then when he invited me to his house for bbq..
then was talking..

then i turned on him and practically snatched her from him.
what the freak.

so.
i think i lost another friend on sunday.
well.
i think i lost him as a friend long back.
just that it was still in a 'processing' mode.
now.
i guess its 'confirmed'

too bad.
give and take maybe?

just finished I&R..
rajoo totally didn't tell us or informed or reminded us about it..
i think he didn't know..
or he'll just suppose we were responsible enough to know..

guess what.
i think i really screwed jc.

really.
i'm not joking.

like.
my results are pure bad.
and pw.
gee.
where should i start from?

he has just killed 10 points for my class's uni-admission.
wow.

and i thought my written report was so damn bloody good.
until i freaked at the conversation justin and syam had.
seeked help from cher.
and she was so shocked at the quality of my written report.
'kenneth chen! why you never let me see earlier??'

yea.
i didn't know what..

cher spent 2 hours plus editing for me.

i sent to my other teacher from another college.
'your written report is not even answering the question'

what the freak!

what the hell has he been doing all along??

so.
i didn't have a choice and stayed up until like 3+ to change 50% of my written report myself.
what the freak.

didn't get a chance to vet the wr again.

so i guess i'm screwed for wr.

and PI.

and soon I&R.

what the freak.
seriously.

i don't know what to do with my life at this point now..
i really don't know...

i used to be in control.
now?
i'm the one being controlled by the circumstances.
screw this la.

this is not meant to be some emo post.
just a complain post.
if that makes any difference.

what the freak.

and everyone is asking me why i have so many white hair now.
gee.
i wonder why.

i'm scared of many things now..
things i never had before and have it now.

i never came to jc before..
i'm like halfway on my way to crashing out.
and something else.
which has always been on my mind.
but i rather not tell any living soul about it.

i can't find much laughter now.
other than on saturday night.
thanks a lot stenphel.
helped lot playing again.
(:

other than that..
i'm quite lost..

my life is slipping out of my grasp..
i don't know how to try and grab it back..

oh ya.
another thing.

stupid politics.
why on earth must you try to tie alvin and me down for the whole camp??

hello???
didn't i tell you it was concamp training?
CONCAMP!!
CON here refers to CONFIRMATION hello?

and you want your last-minute camp to take piority.
yea right.

you get the boss to override.
and you proclaim about not bypassing all channels and conplaining straight to bosses.
what's your problem man?
can't you just ask us first?

i don't think you should really fight so much over this actually..
i'm fine.
but i think alvin shouldn't be stretch so much..
he's still having school la.

and.
although it doesn't really make sense.
but if me going for the whole camp instead of the training solves everything, so be it.
yea.
just that your've in-charge of logistics with ivy and you have the go overseas before and after this camp and concamp comes straight after it.

okay.
anyways.
whacking day is coming up next.
i've haven't really gotten things done.
going to be last-minute work again.
..

i think i need to learn to work together with someone.
oh.
not in this case.
'cos you volunteered to take charge.

gee.

i don't know why i'm actually blogging in like 2.40am in the morning when i'm supposed to be sleeping.
but.
i don't think i can sleep..
can try though..
just that i'm really irritated by some people..

...
don't know what's going on now...

you've becoming my only comfort left as everything else vanishes.
please don't vanish along with everything else..
i won't know what to do..
i'm lost..
i need you..

2008-10-09T10:39:00.002+08:00

hmm kenneth, soz, even i, now also feel quite bad myself. guess its up to zy to cheer u up. zy go help kenneth. im still able to manage on my own for now.

but i dun get it. wat does this world want? life issit juz to study, get a job, and den die ? i dunno. wat concerns me is people's heart. its a cold world out there. heartless. u never noe who will backstab u anyday...

atleast i did... after getting it. wat did i even do? ... guess what jolyn says is right, only 3 people dont matter that much... right? but the thoughts still linger in my mind. i dunno... should i juz ignore? or should i go and find out what happen. i guess. i will juz let the time goes. see how i will survive.

well, sometimes i wished i was in jc. atleast people there are not so two faced as most people are in poly. IF U DUN LIKE SOMEONE, SAY RIGHT IN THE FACE DAMMIT.

so... how... ?

penguin.

2008-10-08T18:21:00.004+08:00

Promos are finally over.

Damn.. I'm worried I wont make it to J2.
I'm so screwed.

GP and H1 Lit was ok.. Then everything went spiralling down.
H2 Geography was killer.. I didnt study earlier. Too late for that now.
Likewise for H2 Maths. Just like the mid-years, almost half the questions I cant solve...
Last minute work = Last minute results
I'm just hoping that conclusion isnt true.
Hell, I'd better not retain.
Seems like reality, but I dont think I'm gonna handle it well if it comes..
or 'when' in comes..

I'm just hoping for minimum a pass in Econs, GP and Lit..
I'd be happy if I at least get a S for my H2 Geog..
Hell! It'd be a miracle if I ever get an S for my H2 Maths..

I had a dream about a week before promos started.
It was about retaining in CJC..
Doesn't seem so surprising to a average person right?
Sadly, it's these kind of DEJA-VU things in my life that I'm worried about.
There's too many times in my life when I actually dreamt or thought of something that could realistically happen, it comes true in the future.
That experience happened to me on the bus trip to Far East Plaza for class outing yesterday.
It happened again..
Wasn't the same dream about retaining, but it was a series of events that contributed to retaining in CJC.
I hate Deja-vu.. seriously sucks.
That had better not bloody happen...

Recently read the new issue of Readers' Digest. (Oct 2008)
Talked about something that was relevant to me in the section "Are you NORMAL or NUTS?",
It goes something like this:

========================================
>> "I dont like talking. (Not true to me.) I'm afraid people will think that what I say is stupid, even when there's absolutely no reason to assume that..."

Response>>
"You're not nuts at all, but you seem to suffer from low self-esteem (huh?) and hyper self-consciousness. (WOAH! How true..) This is a form of social anxiety," says psychologist Joshua Coleman, PhD, who practises in California.

Three things for you to consider:
1. Chances are, you don't sound stupid most of the time. (maybe..)
2. Even if you do say something idiotic once in a while, so what? Everyone does. (o rly?)
3. Most people are so self-absorbed (are you sure?), they aren't paying as much attention as you think. "I'll bet your self-awareness and sensitivity to what others think makes you far less stupid and more thoughtful than most other people," Coleman says, "so speak freely!" (That's risky business!)

Easier read than said, right? Coleman strongly suggests you look for a therapist; he or she may recommend anti-anxiety medications.
========================================

WOAH! Hold that thought...
Spend money on medication for anti-anxiety pills?
Are they even sure such medication existed? I dont want some kinda **** running through my veins that makes me become some *******.
Better yet..
Don't you think I'm a bit too young to even VISIT A THERAPIST??? >=(
Sheesh..

(Btw Stenphel, here's some good reasons why you should install back these games)
Updated my computer games' patches after the exams:

1. SoldierFront now has a Type 89 AR (Assault Rifle) along with some swell-looking gear for the characters. I'm having fun equipping them in Shop. (The beauty of it all!) I've also lowered the graphics level ingame. Now it's so much EASIER to kill other players. Heh! ^ ^"

2. CombatArms has an update to their Black Market. Now there's different version of knifes for melee use (M11, Ninjato and Parang), a P228 pistol that looks like it'll "kick-ass!" and new mercenary characters to purchase for use. (Mei and Deckland. Mei is the first female character ingame and not a bad-looking one too. =P Btw, dont get me mistaken..)
3. Downside to CombatArms, however, is that these stuff can only be purchased by REAL cash (I'm a cheapo! ^ ^") and they arent for permanent use. My own game also keeps causing lag, making it hang ingame so I think there's a problem with the patching. Better to go and redo it again.. Haiz! =(

One last thing to talk about!
GO AND WATCH EAGLE EYE IN THEATRES!
It's like damn freaking AWESOME!
I rate it like 4.5 / 4.8 out of 5 stars!
Don't miss it! You'll regret if you do..

Message:
"Hello (insert name here). You have now been activated. Your task is to watch Eagle Eye in theatres. You are given 3 days to do so. If you disobey, you will become an enemy of the state..."

.:Jeong Su:.

2008-10-08T17:22:00.005+08:00

RE: Kenneth

Kenneth, do you remember Hakuna Matata? (Everytime you log in to this blog, these 2 words greet you.)

I know it sounds stupid to bring it up now but hey.. think about it.

Remember that it is always 'OTHERS' expectation and not your own expectation..
Dont be pressurized by what others expect from you.
You are the person who set your own expectations.
Others are more of either an encouragement or demotivation.
Choose to hear what they say or better yet, ignore it.
Remember that YOU are the one in control of your life. Nobody can take that away from you.
Live your own life the way you want it to.

Studies dont get any easier when you advance. It's natural.
Everything isn't easy by nature.
If it does, our life becomes a total BOREDOM.
I know what I'm gonna say contradicts (myself) but seriously,
some people think of these things as challenges to overcome by yourself.

Think positive..

I know how you feel exactly...
Believe me, it hit 7 weeks before promos even started (check the blog entries)...
Hit me even more times, but I just dont wanna type it down (unless I feel like it..)

Hell! I'm just as worried for promoting through this SH!T...
You've seen it yourself since sec. school.. I aint no top scorer in anything.
Naturally, everything that I think I can pass.. never does.
Nothin' we can do about it now..
Just wait..
That's the problem right?
Forget about promos...
Take the time now to do something else you couldn't have done in the past.
Hobbies.. Interests.. Anything...

Watched this a few weeks back..

Couldn't ever forget those lines since then:
"... Put all the things that bother you and keep you awake at night and clog you head up. Put all those things in a shoebox. Put the lid on it... and deal with it later.. "

There's nothing we can do about it anymore.
What's passed is past.
We have no control over these things.
Might as well do something else..
We can still improve on those weak aspects now. (To just feel better now.) But dont go overboard..

By the way, if I happened to be the "friend" you were referring to..
Dont get me mistaken..
I dont expect you to be the top scorer in your class or have those die-hard expectations on you.
I just want to know how are things going in your life.
It's just a way of knowing.. NOT a way of burdening or stressing.
Just do YOUR OWN best. Not what others' expect from you.
Sometimes, people expect these things because they WANT you to improve and NOT FORCE you to improve.
It's also because they care for you. It's just a way of showing care..

Let go of that built-up stress..
Not fully..
But majority...
Use it as a stepping stone to improve..

The way things are now.. I'd not be surprised if I happen to retain too.
I've looked back on all the things I've done this year..
Some were bold, stupid.. yet they're memorable..
I want to continue on with some of these ways of life. But I dont wanna retain or get kicked out..
Because they matter too much to me..
I'm not gonna worry my ass off those things.
I'm gonna deal with it later.. especially on 7th Nov, that day itself..

About the friends part,
I understand that feeling too.
I guess it's just not in our human nature and way of life to be expressive..
Almost 90% of the time, I experience that feeling..
It's not that I dont wish to be together with my friends or anything..
It's just that I'm wayyy too self-conscious.
I'm afraid of saying stupid things that'll hurt people's feelings.
It's good to not say much so you wont hurt anyone.
But I'm doing it too often..
So much that people think I'm like a mute or some weirdo..
That's destructive..
That's why I dont get too many friends neither.
But this doesnt reflect 100% that by being expressive means you'll have many friends.

This is just a reminder.. (from a friend.. just in case..)
You are not alone.
There are many people around you.
Its just how you make use of them..
Many people care for you.
It's just not shown 100% in public.

Smile. Things will surely get better in the coming future..
Trust me.. I know...
I know.

.:Jeong Su:.

2008-10-07T16:29:00.009+08:00

ah. screw this.

i ain't feeling that well...
and whatever's that going to be read after this may or may not be depressing..
either way its your choice to read on if you want too..
that's why its black..

damn.
promos are over.
i'm not feeling much happier.
i feel the dread in me.

yes.
i think its time to face reality.
i didn't make it.

i didn't want to admit that i lost all control 1 full month back.
i could still save something back then.
but i refused to admit that i've lost it.

too late.

i guess its just a matter of time before i come face to face to reality.
i'm probably on the wrong track to meeting my worst nightmare in my studies.
retaining.

i've never thought it could happen to me.
never.

all i did was sat there just now.
thinking.

what went wrong.

oh boy.
that question will probably get an answer that would probably be 3 times longer than my gp essay for promos.

what went wrong?
everything.

i guess its not my character to admit it.
perhaps it got to do with my interaction style in primary school.

i don't remember having many friends.
because i never bothered to make them.

i liked being alone.
i liked watching others.

but now.
i just feel..

so insecure.
so tired.
so lonely.

damn.
here it comes again.

i guess i managed to peak in my studies in sec2.
that was way back.

4 years already.

that's fast.

i never done that well for my exams before.
that was the last ditch attempt to drag all my grades up.

i did it.
i pulled off a miraculous escape.

if i remembered correctly.
i topped the level for 2 subjects.
and also managed to be in the top few percent for my other subjects.

science was horrible back then.
i think i still failed though.

but in comparision with my previous results.
they were damn good.

then.
i think it has pretty much been downhill for me.

all the way till now.

overconfidence i supposed?

the record still stands.
kenneth chen has yet to perform under pressure in major exams.

yup.
kenneth flunked psle despite getting 256 for his prelims.
he scored a full 30+ marks lower for the real thing.

kenneth flunked his O levels.
should have gotten 10 and below.

now?
kenneth flunked his promos.
screw you.

i thought it would be easier.
thought.

no chance.

i don't think i'll get another chance come 7th november when our results are announced.

i guess t24 may just have a few less students for 2009.
too bad justin can't retain as well.
stupid contract you signed.

i've been given many chances.
but i still push my luck.

i think they've all run out before 29th september.
too bad.
you don't use your luck moderately.

now you regret not trying to save the situation.
too late.
what's done is done.

now all you can do is hope for the best and be mentally prepared.

i'm not sure if i can take it on that day.
probably just breakdown.

i don't know.
i've never come into such an obstacle before.

damn.
here it comes again.

i think i'll go by the minority door.
can't remember which.
the one brother paul will be waiting behind.

probably that.

i hate this you know.

people have too high expectations for me.

i can't live up to them.
i'm not as good as i seem.

the teachers expect me to score As in maris stella.
my friends expect me to top the class again as well.
the whole world seems to just stare at you.
and your knees buckle at the wrong time as you collapse onto the ground.

damn.
here it comes again.

i hate it you know.
i really really hate it.

people think too highly of me.
i'm not that good.
i just stumble my way through and push my luck.

i guess its gone from now on.

its as if somebody jinxed me.
no.
i just unwittingly walked onto the path to self-destruction.
no.
i knew it was coming.
but never bothered to turn back when i have the chance.

now i've passed the doors.
its free-fall from now on.
there's no stopping yourself as you fall.

you can only hope it doesn't hurt as much when you hit the ground.
or at least not feel the pain before the life leaves you.

i tried.
after july i really tried.

as usual.
kenneth cannot maintain.
he slacked off.
and now he'll pay for that.

too bad.
you had your chances.

chances.
i've been given too many chances.
way too many.

maybe that's why i feel i could still pull the stunt off for promos.

stupid.
serves you right.

i don't know what i will do.
i'm really comtemplating already.
i don't know if i should just ask and get it over and done with.
i don't see the point if i can never perform when it is the time to do so.

it hurts really.
it really hurts.

so now i'm going to see everyone move on without me.
you don't have a choice.
you have to move on without me.
i'm sorry.

all i can wish for is for just one more chance.
just one more.
please?

i've learnt my lesson.
i'm really sorry.

don't cling on to me if you can.
i'm just a burden that will drag you down.
if i get the chance.
i hope i'll be a better person.
no.
i must be.

screw this.
this doesn't make sense.

i'm comtemplating.
and i'm asking for a chance.
what logic is this supposed to be.

i think i'm kinda a jinx myself.

coming to think of it.
i've not been really useful.

i'm not sure.

but things are really bad now.
since the week before exams.

can't use that as an excuse though.
just that it provided me with a hell load more of pressure to work with.

i can't work with pressure.
it sucks.
screwed this.

damn.

its not been a useful post.
don't feel anymuch better.

sorry if you read this.

i can't say bye.
i don't want to say bye.
but when the time comes.
i may have no choice but to say goodbye.

try not to talk to me if possible.
i want to return to my primary school pastime of being alone.

2008-10-06T23:11:00.001+08:00

heh. seriously. veir quick updates. sat went for dance den had wedding dinner. sunday was my maid's bdae, so celebrate at swensens. mondae = todae = went kbox = fun = now veri tired = quick post! HEHEHE GD NITE LOL

penguin. rushing for flight. xD

2008-10-01T10:23:00.002+08:00

ok! todae is 1st of oct! happy hari raya and HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY TO ALL : D. hmm . since those 2 are having thier promos, i shall be the one to update the blog! : D.

lets see. quick updates in my life. last thur we had dance formation pratice and technique class. was very fun haha. i guess thats all i can say about it LOLOL.

fri ar. i seriously 4got what i did LOL. maybe i juz stoned at home. proberly. well... on sat, i had private dance training wif ner haha. the dance move was so hard lol. it was more tiring den gym xP. den after dance, me,ner,JOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYN and ming hao went to eat lunch tgt.

we went to a jap resturant in bugis. uh the food was not bad. haha. and we gossiped alot LOL. after that we went to walk walk awhile... um, den was FORCED by jolyn and minghao to go to raffles city wif dem.

REASON: jolyn was gonna work there and had 1hr to spare -_-...

nvm lo, den i folo dem haha. den we walk walk abit den jolyn went to her work, at ben and jerry's xD. den me and minghao bought a cone each lol.

den i went home... the end?

den sunday... sunday... OMG WAT DID I DO ON SUNDAY lol. oh ya. stoned at home and den watched red cliff wif my family. thats about it lo. o.o...

AHAHHA mondae! mondae was the NPDS bbq. i went to CP to meet some people earlier at 12 30. i reach there den they say time changed to 1pm -.-... so i went arcade play abit. LOL. den play half way suddenly got someone tap my head -.-... den made me lose contorl of the car =x LOL. haha. but nvm. that person was tisha lol. ok was unexpected.

zhixing was wif her alrdy so yea. the 3 of us went ONE BIG ROUND to find subway thx to SOMEONE =x... when subway was like on the right 3 shops away LOL. haha but was cool la since we had time to spare.

den edna and kahhao came. guess whose last? DON. LOL. nothing new. its expected. Oops xP.

den we ordered 3 12inch subways. i shared wif zx while tisha wif kh and edna wif don. after that was took bus to mrt den mrt to mrt den mrt to joseph's hse for the bbq.

blah blah blah. bbq was fun played games. did some bbq-ing. i shed SOME tears caz the smoke went in my eyes lol. uh. played some games. DRANK 1 mixed alcohol thingy. i can't DRINK OK. sry lurhz O_O... some highlights abt the bbq. brandon kissed edna on the cheek lol. i was dared to go and "teach" ting wei how to play the game WHEN I MYSELF DUNNO HOW LOL. joseph's was to take off his shirt o.o

took a couple of pics, played some pictionary. the pictionary LOL. i still can remember ryan's STARFISH. lol. see liao also buay tahan haha! left at around 10 30 wif ner, ryan, tingwei, ck and zheng an? <<>

tue tue tue. early morning wake up play game lalala. den went in the afternoon for npds. omg jive LOL. was so tiring. had a couple of screw up here and there. made me alittle moody -.-... must be the heat. we went to another dance room. THE AIR CON SPOIL ONE.

so bloody hot lol.

after that had dance formation training. yawns i m lazy to say about that.

after that went home wif jolin, shutian, zhixin, sihui and serene. but half way jolin's father came. so left me , sihui and serene. ^^... 1 guy 2 gals Muaahhahaha lol.

den we talked quite a bit here and there lol. den bus 74 came . den me and serene ps si hui MUAHAHAA lol. den i talked wif serene on the bus. found out she actually can talk alot o.o. i tot shes those veri quiet type HAHA. but was nice la. we chit chat non stop. talked from nothing to everything LOL. ya. den she got down. den i went down ~.~... everything we talked between me, serene and sihui MUST KEEP CONFIDENTIAL HOR. ok! = D...

i guess thats about all. its wed now... another day awaits. tata people!

Lost penguin

Going to Sahara Desert... :D

2008-09-26T23:30:00.002+08:00

HEY ZY! WELCOME TO THE 17 YEARS OLD AGE. NOW KENNETH IS YOUNGER DEN US technically by 1 year =P...

Cheers! All the best for the next year!

Penguin.

P.S, i owe u a present XD

2008-09-26T22:48:00.002+08:00

HELLO!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHI YONG!! XD

A VIDEO FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY!! (:

Once a year we celebrate,
With stupid hats and plastic plates,
The fact that you were able to make
Another trip around the sun.
And the whole clan gathers ‘round,
And gifts and laughter do abound.
And we let out a joyful sound
And sing that stupid song.

Happy birthday!
Now you’re one year older.
Happy birthday!
Your life still isn’t over.
Happy birthday!
You did not accomplish much.
But you didn’t die this year, I guess that’s good enough.

So let’s drink to your fading health,
And hope you don’t remind yourself,
Your chance of finding fame and wealth,
Decrease with every year.
‘Cause if you feel you’re doing laps,
And eating food and taking naps,
And hoping that someday perhaps
Your life may hold some cheer.

Happy birthday!
What have you done that matters?
Happy birthday!
You’re starting to get fatter.
Happy birthday!
It’s downhill from now on.
Try not to remind yourself your best years are all gone.

If cryogenics were all free,
Then you could live like Walt Disney.
And live for all eternity,inside a block of ice.
But instead your time is set.
This is the only life you get.
And though it hasn’t ended yet,
Sometimes you wish it might.

Happy birthday!
You wish you had more money.
Happy birthday!
Your life’s so sad it’s funny.
Happy birthday!
How much more can you take?
But your friends are hungry, so just cut the stupid cake.

Happy birthday!
Happy birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Dear… [names]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:

2008-09-25T21:42:00.002+08:00

Long time no bloggie... HI PEOPLE!!! =)

Wah... I feel damn nervous and panicky this whole week... Have been having very weird dreams lately the past 2 weeks... It's as if I went into the future... And things didn't look very pwetty.. Hope they dont come true... xS

Anyways, tmr is gonna be my B-Day... Sheesh.. Doesn't feel right becoming 17... Looks like a BIG number already.. *sigh* .. Still damn scared for promos...

Keep looking back at what I've done at CJC so far and I think most of the stuff are pretty memorable.. I just hope nothing goes wrong now.. Especially PROMOS...

I definitely BUANG my H2 Maths alr.. Only can do the best lar... But I hope other subjects dont screw up... Cant afford to get any U for any subject anymore.. I can picture myself being retained but I dont want it to happen... WAH!! xS

Got RAPED today after school.. Sianzz... After school, Damian suddenly wrestle me down, along with some of me classmates Kian How and Yi Xi. Then kena drawn all over me chest... LOL.. bloody hell.. use some marker that take damn long to rub off.. Spent almost 1 hr to wash it off and it still wont 100% come off.. What he drew shall not be revealed.. But this shall be kept secret between those around... Damian.. Your B-Day after promos ah.. You can run but you cant hide.. =P

*I run away also wont work one.. Sooner or later will kena.. So need not run.. right? Andrew & Timothy didnt join in.. But I remember Andrew doing smth... Lucky (for me?), Jia Jian and the Cat-High-Marist gang still got class.. =P No flying knee... ^ ^" But I have a feeling I gonna get tau-pok by ODAC soon.. Hmm...

Die also lah.. I cant run lvl 0 anymore.. Not even 7 rounds leh.. =_= Got some contributing factors leading to this (I assume):
1. Injury near my gluteus maximus came back..
2. Left Knee still not fully normal after 21km Zoo Run
3. Promo stress.. (dont underestimate this 1...)

IZ Lim oso dun let me do REAL RUN on Oct 19 (I think the date is correct.) Guess I still not up to standard.. Academia also suck-suck.. So I understand.. Just train harder after promos for Nov XP and for nxt yr competition lah... (if there's a next year.. =S)

Some nice-nice things is umm.. can do MORE PULL-UPS! (not chin-ups. Chin-up is underhand 1..) Last time after 4 then struggle like madd... But after doing each time before recess and dinner everyday.. In a short span of almost 2 weeks, I now can do minimum 6 and maximum 9! And each pull-up the elbow go all the way straight one, which means is REAL and ACCURATE PULL-UPs! (not the 'fake kind' of almost straight elbow one..) Haha... Now I not the weakest few in pull-ups.. I caught up with the mean no. of pull-ups in ODAC! Shall try to hit 10 soon... XD
now my Bicep Brachii = bigger? =S

Still very very scared for promos sia.. B-Day must study like MAD! T_T

Must get back to studying.. Though tmr is CJC Study Day, I still need to go back sch for extra Lit class and to study after that.. Must pass promos.. Must PASS! I dont want retain.. poly to me even worse.. xS

*Kenneth B-Day also suay-suay during promos.. Jia YOU hor! XD

I didnt get to wish everyone during the 1st 1/2 of the year Happy B-Day at all so I wish those I forget then a very Belated Happy B-Day! LoL.. Stenphel, you too! =P

Think I should end it here.. Got nothing on my mind anymorez..

~BYE!~

Frisbee = FUN! d(^^)b

.:Jeong Su:.

2008-09-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY HEY updates! i recently had been hanging out wif dancesport people alot haha. omg they are getting nicer and nicer lol. went out last sunday at 6:30pm to celebrate latern festival. met edna at hougang mrt and we waited for desmond. desmond drove a car seh. we expected him to be walkin towards us. AND HE WAS LATE HAHAHA lol. but he was 3rd to arrive. so not that bad la.

den after that we went to fetch yvonne. she juz came bak from china lol. while waiting for her, desmond played a cd about ghost stories. den he suddenly BOO at us. startled me abit :P... haha den on the way yvonne said alot of things. but too much to write. so i shall skip it. we also picked up pingting :D... den the 5 of us reached punggol park first. den we play playplay. slowly people started joining 1 by 1.

don and soljini came. den richard came. den lynette. den we went to kopitiam eat. den reach home late xD. heh.

todae went out to watch death race wif pam. haha death race nice seh. mm. den went for dancesports. veri fun ! LOL. todae started jive. everyone was sweating like mad. and i loved the formation :)... the song veri nice. thats about all bah. tata!

penguin!

!!!

2008-09-15T21:00:00.006+08:00

okay..
let's see..

shall rest for 15minutes before returning the math..

things to do/important stuff for the rest of 2008:

September.
19th-PW written report final submission
24th-JC1s end of year ceremony
29th-H1 general paper (going to aim for at least a D this time)
30th-H1 geography, H1 chinese (geog.. aiya.. crap lor.. chinese. basket. damn pressure leh.)

October.
2nd-H2 physics (ah! i'm very scared for physics!!!)
6th-H2 economics (meep.)
7th-H2 mathematics, NE & current affairs (*yawn*)
11th-local CIP:newpaper collection (vetter?)
17th-MOE chinese anchor test (just for fun. how fun)
18th-local CIP:children's home mini games carnival, archidiocesan youth day (f&b)
19th-whacking day (project manager)
20th-H1 chinese cjc mock exam (okay..)
24th-26th-YM leaders' retreat (logs ic)
30th-'A' level chinese (meep. pressure)

November.
3th-7th-PW oral presentation (group leader)
24th-28th-1t24 OCIP:batam (fun out with t24! XD)
29th-30th-secondary 1 orientation camp (logs?)

December.
1st-4th-NYAA adventurous journey:mawai(johor) eco-camp (hmmm.. for the sake of NYAA gold)
5th-8th-CONFIRMATION CAMP 2008 (co-logistics head with ivy)
13th-confirmation mass 2008 (last but not least!)

wooo!
that's packed!
and its going to be fun!

after 9th i'm going to move into neutral gear..
slack for like 1 or 2 weeks then start studying again..
provided i can get started again. XD

yea.
shall watch movie, play frisbee, walk walk, etc...

so this means no youth cat for me all the way from now to november.
haha.
:)

heh.
i'm watching out for 24th november to 8th december..
2 weeks of camps..
going to be tough.
shall pia.

heh.
saw augustine just now..
while i was..
erm.
heh.
(:

then vanessa came along.
you were.
not me!

XD

okay.
back to math!

BYE!~

2008-09-13T23:53:00.003+08:00

basket!!!

stupid markers!!!

now i must wash everything.

why must you leak you stupid marker.

humph!

2008-09-11T21:36:00.002+08:00

Uh.. first of all. i hav no idea whats happened to the blog skin. KENNETH PASS TO U ! =x... heh. aniwae, my life recently are juz gaming gaming gaming. other den going to dance sport on tue.

OMG DANCE SPORTS PEOPLE RULE!!!

oh ya... i also went to gym wif desmond, ryan, andy and alex. omg. my muscle now still pain. it was yesterday we went. LOL. of course pain. but was fun. after 2 and the half hrs of gym, went to play abit of bball and badminton. den went home :)...

todae is thur. after dota-ing for awhile, i went out wif pam to watch 4bia. that show got 4 other "series" inside. the 3rd one was SOOOOOOOO funny LOL. overall 4bia is not as scary as expected. but nevertheless. I M STILL SCARED LOL. xD... pam keep askin me what happen. i keep saying " I DUNNO I ALSO NOT LOOKIN ! " =x LOL. k la but most of the time i was ok! $6 is not for nothing one.

after that, went to PS walk walk. pam ar. cannot decide on things one. walk here walk there walk here walk there. END UP BUY NOTHING LOL. got la... 2 lollipop -.-..? but overall was quite ok la :P... i keep suaning her. dam funny xP.

thats about all. i m off!

tata~

Penguin!

2008-09-09T17:40:00.002+08:00

Lot's of bittersweet things happening currently... Just naming a few...

-1-
Bad News: My computer is down with a major virus... Couldn't even go online at all so I haven't been reading or looking at the blog... But thanks for all the support peeps! Sorry to make you all worried... =S

Good News: I guess this is a sign that I should be focusing on my studies since my only distraction has finally gone case...

-2-
Good News: I'm dropping the grudge with you-know-who... I admit I am not proficient enough to clock the fastest timing so I'll do it after the promos. Thanks for helping me purchase the Malaysia Map during your visit... =)

Bad News: Promos are coming in less than 3 weeks... Haven't really did enough revision to meet my expectations during the holidays... AHHHHH!!! xS

-3-
Good News: Term 4 Timetable now states that school ends at 1 - 2pm everyday... Now there's more time to study and get enough rest each night...

Bad News: This also means no more ODAC till promos are over... I'm gonna miss their company..

-4-
Good News: Cleared 15 rounds lvl -1 (1min35sec per lap) almost exactly on the dot with timing of 23min43sec...

Bad News: Knee injury received during the 21km run to Zoo didn't recover before school reopened... So now walk also cannot walk properly.. Cannot do anymore running for a week or two to make sure things don't get any worse...

~5~
Went to the Malay barber shop beside the Chinese barber shop (which I usually go to) yesterday to get a haircut. Didn't cut my hair there before so I tried. Told the barber (which I found out from his phone conversation that he moved from SengKang to Admiralty to work) to cut my hair short and layer...

BAD NEWS: He cut the hair TOO SHORT! I now look like some rehab ex-gangster, a NS-man or some guy who keeps in touch with his INNER NERD! Don't dare to go say 'Hi!' to most of my not-so-close friends from different classes in CJ now... Later they laugh on the inside then I die liao... xS

good news?: Now my hair isn't too long anymore... Can actually feel a bit of wind =S... Surprisingly, the school did a check on hair and uniform on the next day. I passed it. =P After promos I think it'll be longer since my hair grows a lot faster than most people. Won't look so bad after that I guess.. =)

That's all for now I guess.. Gonna catch up on the new posts and C-Box messages on the blog then finish up editing my Project Work's Written Report on Future Scenarios... XD

.:Jeong (balding) Su:.

2008-09-06T21:47:00.003+08:00

heya its penguin back! :D... back from my challengers camp. was quite a fun camp :D... the grouping never passed more den 10mins we were alrdy chatting like mad :)... my group name? Wacko LOL. i dunno why but ya. almost became wanko -_-... theres other group names like potato, survivor AND your mother! LOL. yes its "your mother"...

aniwae. first day was quite ok lo. to be honest, i can't really remember what we did LOL. wait ar lemme think... after lunch... go hall play some games. we played WACKO :D... lol... den lewis, this uber enthu guy through the camp, was being forced to do a forfiet lol. caz the wacko stick in his hand. end up, EVERY single challenger did chicken dance :D... cool eh lol.

den the stupid next game. aiya, lazy elaborate LOL. but the game is roughly like this. Eg, "Find a name that has "A" in it" den must go find a person lo. but cannot find same group de. wa sian, den i completed b4 time finish. veri happi.

I FOUND OUT ALOT OF OTHER PEOPLE ALSO. and the best part? those completed de must do a forfiet... -__- thats what u get for being enthu* :O...

den went to design flag and learn cheer.

before dinner starts, i had to go and eat dinner first. caz got dance sport : ))~ ... went for DS wif kh and alex. some quick parts. got whacked by pam for nothing, got more scared of night walk. LOL.

den when go join dem bak, had to watch a horror movie called "BOO" LOL. it ended up quite funny caz some of my team mates keep giving funny comments lol. den watch stay alive half way den the security chase us out :O... lol. den i went to walk walk! mine was a team of 4. Nick, jj, grace and me. bah i got scared once ok! lol. fine >.>

den um. reach bak bath SLEEP!

morning wake up eat breakfast den prepared for a whole day of games. some high lights of the day. lazy to post everything.
*Played butter strings but my shirt was still clean :D:D
*The stupid toothpaste game i got the part is belly button -_-... hot sia LOL
*Steph had to lick sherk's tummy~ :O
*2 guys mouth to mouth passed the toothpaste. cannot remember who.

fast forward to mid night!. we tonned! LOL. we played a game called polar bears. OMG THAT GAME IS SO ADDICTIVE LOL. so fun so fun. i wished can play again. oh well. gonna teach my dance sport people! :D... den can play wif dem lol.

played until around 5 den i cannot tahan. decided to go sleep for awhile. not even 10 mins got 1 idiot, my group mate, the guy incharge of marbles and flag de, come and draw on my hand -.-... den i woke up LOL. caz i easily awaken :D... den wanted to go sleep again. den was drawn by LM -.-... zzz . everyone like to bully me.

den while i was watching my teammates play card games, i heard from them that each time they finish a round, i automatically will change my sleeping post. that last for atleast 20 times. omg. EERIE!!! LOL. dun even noe why i did that :O...

so morning wake up, packed up. PLAYED POLAR BEAR AGAIN!!! LOL.

camp debrief until 2 den finish le~ :D

aniwae, my overall opinion of my team. quite happy all so enthu. but end up like got small cliques le. quite hate that. and the super cam whoring. omg. its so dam irritating. they wan take photo take la. no nid block de rest right. stupid sia. den wan stand infront. DUNNO HOW TO SQUAT DOWN AR. LOL. ok la. i tink thats about the camp.

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. BREAK CAMP. lol. den i went home, bath den went to sentosa!

DEN RIGHT. ON MY WAY TO SENTOSA, I SAW PAM AND HUIFANG. DEN THEY ASK ME FOLLOW DEm. I HAD TO BRING BACK A "PACKAGE" BACK TO EDNA. GUESS WHAT WAS IT -.-... IT WAS HER SWIMWEAR T.T.... luckily i brought plastic bag. imagine a guy carrying a a a a a b...i....k....i LALALALA. ya. =/

met up wif around 20 dance sport people and played around. went into the sea haha. mmm

oh ya. abel kena stung by a jelly fish??? o.o dunno.

finish le den we went to carls JR to eat. :D... den went to sky top slack abit. den went the children's play ground to play! LOL. dam fun. we took quite a few pics. shall wait for edna to send me :)...

den we went to Toy R Us LOL. desmond, our dancesport president, was dam LOL la lol. free den i upload the video xD. aniwae, new things i learned about my dance sport senior. they are also a veri cute bunch of people haha. all like to be childish also xD... but yup. ITS FUN! cheers!

This is penguin signing off.

tata~

2008-09-03T21:17:00.003+08:00

yay!

went studying out today..
and sms alot today..
haha..
somehow alot of people to talk to..
send like almost 80+ in 2hrs..
heh.
probably other people got sms more than me..
but i first time sms so much in such a little time..

strange feeling that i blew my sms limit this month.
oops.

heh..

went early early to ang mo kio library to study..
well..
come'on..
its ce and me..
you think we will study meh?
haha..

ended up reading some mystery novel and psp-ing..
XP

but i got do some work..
erm.
i read the geography lecture notes which i have never read before..
'cos i always sleep during geog lecture XD

yup yup..
then after that weird encounter with the self-proclaiming ah peh.
ce and i went to amk hub to meet becca..

wth sia..
that ah peh.
see the wall we were leaning on?
yea.

take 15 steps back.
sprint towards it.
and use your head to test the wall for its density..

i think the wall will probably crumble la.
your brain must be super dense la you baka.

what the freak.
you say civilised and educated.

like.
hellloooo???
we are appropriately dressed..
you mr ah peh.
are wearing crocs. wearing pants. wearing some old flowery shirt as if you're in hawaii or something. balding messy hair. thick geeky glass.
and you want to talk about being educated and civilised to us?

yo. check out your attitude first man.
and go look into the mirror.
i think you'll just die of shock after you see the reflection.

what the freak.

yea.
don't care.
heh.
quite shiok flaming some ah peh online.
my point of view anyways.

haha..
but.
seriously.
you started it first.

yup yup..
then walked the amk hub..
met becca..
then went for lunch..

as usual will rain one..
heh.
so we were conveniently trapped in amk hub.
XD

yea.
then went 'shopping'.
shop to shop..
went in look at things..

ivy joined us later..
then left at 5pm..
.
.

heh.
then we went to macdonalds to study.
yea.

i continued to read the geog...
haha..
quite fun in macs..

yea..
then went over to subway..
eat dinner..
i'm already very full la..
okay.
fine.
you say eat then eat lor..

i ate the iron tablet!
so you must eat that whatever glucose thingy or whatever that thing is that will make your joints more lubricated!
promise already!

yea.
then.
quite funny the dinner..
cassie joined us for dinner..
talk alot..
haha..

then.
what the freak sia..

this table of guys were at the first table of subway.
which.
is actually in the middle of nowhere la..
totally blocking the way the stupid table..
no idea why they put one table there..

yea..
since no space.
plus the guys like 5 or 6 people share one tiny table..
so they obviously had to sit further out..
that's okay..
want to pass just squeeze abit okay already..
yea..

then i went to throw the subway wrappers and rubbish..
walk past them..
then 'cos i had to avoid them..
squeeze mah..
then bag accidentally nudge until this guy..

went i throw rubbish that time i look back into the subway there to see if they ready to go already or not..
then noticed the whole table staring at me..
not that i looked at them la..
can see..

yea..
then i..
uh huh..
see what you want to do..

yea.
then i walk back..
then this guy.
the guy who sits opposite the guy whom i accidentally 'nudged' with my bag.
he stick out the umbrella to try and trip me.

wa lau.
you think i dumb ar.
i took half step first.
then used right leg kick the stupid umbrella.
it went 'ping!'
'cos the handle hit the underside of the table..

basket la you.
think you smart ar.
carry some gay umbrella around.
stupid la.

yea.

then obvious they like not happy la.

then i told becca to keep to the right..
i walk on the left..
followed by cassie and ce..

yea.
they didn't do anything..
then we go out of subway that time..
they all stand up together..

what you want sia.
you seriously dare do anything to the 3 of them i will do something back la.
basket people.
then stand like 1m away from us..
siam la.

idiots.
think you all hair long long.
hair dyed.
wear that type of stylo-milo clothes.
hang out in gangs.
cool la.

yea right.
have fun wasting your life away mann..

yea..
then went home..

that's much for today..

quite fun..
other than stupid and idiotic people..

XD
i want study!

noo.. don't take me with my camera..

lol.
my hair does look dyed..
and its not a toilet bowl brush!

some random thing i wrote with the excessive chill i took..
originated from ce's lameness.
haha..

okay.
study!

BYE!~